8PM. In school Library. I am crying badly. Deleted some pictures from the Hp. Deleted some pictures from the Lappie. I now have none of those pictures. I feel much relieved. Very relieved.

You thanked me for the folder i made. Now, my apologies for deleting that particular folder. I was right. I shouldnt have put so much hope on this. Let bygones be bygones. I'm afraid of any truths later on. I hate this one-sided treatment. I'm tired of always being the one who did most of the thing, to make you feel all touched, to make you feel loved. You may said, you're always there each time when problems were on my side, but that isnt what i only need.

I wonder why my heart dosent seem to open up to the one who really loves me truly. Someone who would do all things for me, just to make me feel all touched. And again, i wonder why, why do i always get my heart attached to someone who dosent seem to understand my needs, someone who dosent seem to prioritise me, when he, by all means, seemingly wants to be the only soul in my life.

I pray everything shall end here. I'm sorry. I feel all so silly now!

On the verge of letting go, Alhamdulillah! (:

Labels: Time Check: 08:19 PM

Evil Uncertainties clouded the obstinate mind.
The feeling is worst than awful!

...........

Walking aimlessly has always been my favourite. It has been quite a while since i got the leg muscles to work out. Finally yesterday, i did some deeds to those legs. Nyehehs! Had a really great time walking here and there with my superhero buddy. Great that we lost our way. From Chinatown all the way to Clark Quay, with few same rounds we ventured. Hehs! That was awesomely loved! haha (: This really reminds me of those time i walked around Singapore with Azeez. Also with Abang Hilmi. Not forgetting with Khair♥ ♥ too. Cherished those moments to bits. Hehe! (:

Conversation between Khair and me not long ago, during our walking moments. Back then in Semester 1, straight after my school. (haha)

Khair:
I thought today's supposed to be our leisure day. Aren't you tired?
Ain:
No. I feel happy! Aren't you?
Khair:
I'm more than Happy. Lets have a proper date one day okay!
Ain:
I'd love to date someone by walking with him aimlessly! And witness Singapore lifestyle together!
Khair:
So.. u mean, we're dating now?
Ain:
Hahahahaha!!

Cute kan, my BFMM. Never fail to carve a smile on my face. Eh, movie next week eh? (P.s: That's NOT a date ok khair, because i hate typicality! Unless if you bring me to walk around Singapore with the companion of SWEATS! hehs!)

.............

I miss my bigbrotherLOVE! He's booking in today. Sobs. Conversation with him for awhile, the night before. Despite that, i'm still all in joy! (: Like i say the night before, i really do miss you. Sometimes, i would wish Bartley would once again be our place for just A day, for one last time, so that we could for once more, exchange our sincere smile to each other. Teehee! May this sibling ties of us lasts! (:


(Ouh gosh, i just realised something, it has been long since i used BLUE fonts ehh?) hahaha!

Sang Hijau telah kini bermahajarela di hati! ♥ ♥ ♥

Labels: Time Check: 1:57PM

Hello, Syahmeer's beside me! I shall now introduce you to him..
ok hi ppl .
His handphone has just been ventured by me. Serious, it's damn fun reading peo's inbox! hehe
basket.
Boring uhh Syahmeer. Type properly can?!!
aku nk tido sini . boleh ?
Haha. Boleh! Apa salah nya? haha. Kau permenant kat rumah aku okay! haha
ok set!
For that, sayang aku taaak? hahahaha
errr .
Hahaha. silence means yes! Aww, I'm super touched! You're saying that world wide! hahaah!
u attached kn ?haha
Sorry yaw! I'm single! And i'm loving it! haha. Takda orang nak aku pe! haha
oh jadi i ada chance uh ?
Hahaha... kecil tapak tangan, nyiru saya tadahkan! hahahaahha!
ok *mcm phm*
Haha. why? you wanna get yourself attached to me? Hahahahaah!
tau malu tk ?
tak taaau! tu pasal aku taruk macam gitu!! perigi cari timba nya zaman sekarang! hahaahha
aku tau kau suke aku . tapi kan aku terpaksa reject kau uh .
Sakiiiiit hatiii, sakit sekaliiii.. melihat kau berpimpin tangan dengaaan si diaaaaaa! (lagu achik spin!) haha
sape achik spin ?
Ada google.com buat apaaa??! haha
tngk ehemehem.
Ishk!!! Bertaubat lah kamu sebelum kamu ditaubatkan!!! hehehe
ok da penat .

The end! hahaha

ini la kwn kite syahmeer dan ain . sekian , terima kaseh !

Labels: Time Check: 08:47 PM

Semestral exam is just around the corner. Lucky i passed my 1009 module even though it was ONLY boderline. Hehs. I truly need that boy to teach me, can? I dont want to just open up my book and study. All i need is you and your voice, with your cute gestures, teaching and guiding me through. Not forgetting with your smiles to spur myself up. nyehehs! (:



Open house was great. Honestly, throughout my entire life, i have never been wanting to go for NYP's except for a school trip during my sec 3 years, which was compulsary. I never liked NYP before, without knowing a reason why. However, fate brought us together and now, my heart is all over with it. Teehee. A place where i met many good friends, never-ending happiness and mostly, the desire of my heart.

-Once i got myself smitten, forever it'll stay without a turn.

I'm still stuck with Programming project. Done with the basics. The rest are still left hanging. Hopefully, by today everything will be settled. Waiting for Syahmeer's presence. Cepat-cepat datang lah! haha. I need to buck up for the exams. 1010, gosh! 1008? Hmm, i knew i didnt really put my heart and soul to it for the CT. Okay, the mind is about to burst any time soon! Aku takut! Kawan-kawan, jom kita adakan seisi belajar bersama-sama! ((:



I still remember the difficulty i faced just to get you closer to me. You were hard to reach. So hard that each time when i tried to get hold of you, i'd breakdown and would be all over with fits of anger. Uncertainties would then never failed to blur my visions. I was all quivering with anguish and torment disturbance. You, at that point of time, never seemed to care. However still, the desire of my heart was too strong to let go. I kept on reaching. Beyond my limits, i tried to attain your eyes on me. Eventually, after all those tears shed and those silly arguments we had, my heart is finally at ease. No more uncertainties. No more doubts. For my trust has now, i allow it to be with you, keeping you company.

Labels: Time Check: 12.20PM

Two hours more to the arrival of that PRINCE CHARMING to my house. Well Well, someone is still on his bed, dreaming of his PRINCESS away.. haha.. Ehhh Meeer, i wanna be the princess. Then visualise me as the most beautiful princess ever lived in this world. Alright? haha, lame!


I hope he's not gonna be late or i'd have to struggle myself patiently with the roars and croaks in the tummy. Aku lapar. And i wanna have lunch with him! Meer, terharu tak? haha (:


Aside that, yesterday night was a fruitful conversation between me and someone. (well, okay. i doubt there'll be a day where i could actually anounce his name cos it apparently seems that there'll never be a day. hm. Dee knows what i mean, hoho. So stop asking who, i seriously mean it) All the things he said, i took them seriously will full hindsight. However still, i sort of couldnt see the shine of happiness that i truly craved for in this special term between us, unfortunately. The heart seems far from calmness. We'll see how it goes. I donwanna put my fingers on it, predicting what will eventually happen between us later on. For i'm afraid i couldnt accept reality then. Thus, preparation for the worst is the current homework for the heart. Dear you, im sorry if this truly hurts you in a way. Understand me. Understand my needs and you'll realise how miserable ive always been, since before.


On a brighter note, i was greatly astonished by someone's surprised. Gosh, he's just so being uberly sweeet can? :)I was having my beauty sleeeeep. Suddenly the phone rang, instantly woke me up. Dung! With the croaky voice, i answered reluctantly. (Without actually knowing who's the freaking caller, hoho)


Ain:
Hello......

Him:
SELAMAT PAGI!! SEMOGA CERIA CERIA HARI INI!

Ain:
ha? Maaf, awak tersalah number ke?

Him:
Bangun tdo gi masuk MSN! Aku lah khair! kau lupakan aku, ain???

Ain:
Aku nak tdo!!!

Him:
Masuk MSN dulu laaaah!!!

-.-

So i took my lappy out and got myself online. Guess what? The first thing he did was to ambush me with water balloons. Yea, that irritating wink. haha. The amusing thing was the way how he constructed his reasons for doing that.


"Air nanti boleh buat kau fresh. Tak lah bila kau chat ngan aku, kau ternguap nguap. No good tau for a gfmm to layan half-heartedly dengan bfmm dia. Kalau dah kahwin, tak bau syurga nanti!"


I INSTANTLY BURST OUT LAUGHING the moment i read that sentence. Aiyo!


And ouh, your pm and dp really smother smiles all over my face lurhh haha! Sayaaa suka! And i hope girls wont find me for the name you stated at ur pm okay! haha ((:

So yea, basically 2010 has been rocking great and yes, thanks to my fellow bestfriends for everything! And khair, gi tukar ur PM la. haha :) but i like! Hehs! (:


School's starting tomorrow.

Labels: Time Check: 11:34 AM

Khair:
Don get too special... cos if you try to separate that 'special' word into two.. it'l give you... spe cial... SPACE SIAL. -----> too special that u will feel so much Space in between and believe me the feeling is so damn Sial! wakakaka!

Piglet punya khair!! Orang tanya pendapat dia.. Ni yang dia kasi. Apedah!

Well, hmm, apparently it seems true ey. Proof, i'm much more closer with my fellow Best friends.


p/s: Still, you very merepek uhh Khair. Nasib kau bukan matair aku btolbtol kalau tak, confirm aku pancung kepala aku sebab karenah giler kau! lol! *TwinkleWinks

Labels: Time Check: 08:43 PM

i'd be lying if i were to say you're gone from my mind.
neither will i tell the truth that you're still burning up inside me.
cos' something's just so amiss,
when it comes to you and i.
hush, boy. do not fuss over it.
just get this straight, to me, you're perfect.
and i would not want to be tied down with someone whom is less perfect than you.
you're still behind the shadows.
period.


Escape theme park has changed over the years.
Still i had fun. Especially getting myself WET.
Wet as in the whole body wet! gaah~

More photos with Adlin Darling.

Sing One last Song to me!

Labels: Time Check: 03.14 PM