Toyr'us has always been awesome. I can never love any other place like how ive loved it. When i was younger, i always crave to create a toyr'us at a corner of my room. Soon, i'm sure that dream will turn out not just a fantasy. Once again, Superfarhan surprised me when i was attentively looking at a particular thing. Previously was clothes over at cotton on and yesterday, i was in toyr'us when i was setting my eyes on some cute toys. haha!



Isnt she Cute? Awwwwwwwwww. Gosh! I instantly fall in love with her the moment i set my eyes on her. (Pink equivalent to Baby girl haha!) When i have gotten hold of her in weeks time OR BETTER STILL, IN 9 MONTHS TIME HAHAHA, i am so gonna wrap it around my arms and shower her with all of my kisses! ahhhhhhh! hahaha ((: I'll come back with $19.80! Lol! =)

Stepped our feet at Siloso Beach around afternoon, when the sun was uphigh. Yet the ground was still moisten with fine drops, which later on, due to light lightning strikes, red flag was posed. Camwhored for minutes while waiting for the disappearance of that particular flag.












And did i say i was all excited the moment i reached the destination? While walking towards the shore, my eyes were scrutinizing around for Bigbro Izwan. Finally after 10 months of being apart from the eyes, we finally met again. Haha. I truly miss that bigbro! If it hadnt because he was on duty at that point of time, i would have annoyed him like one lunatic monkey and made him strangle me. Haha! Bigbro, do know that i miss you loads loads okie!! Hehs! Terharuuuu taaaak? ;)




Double Kayaking was the plan for the day. However, we were given free try out for both Banana Ride and Flying Fish. All due thanks to Bigbro Izwan and his colleagues. They really Are a bunch of nice people! ((:

I never kayak-ed before until yesterday. Despite that it requires a whole lot of energy at the arms, it was awesomely great. Positively, i could shed the fats away which has been lingering around in my arms. hoho. The wow thing about kayaking is that, while making trips at the sea, you can also enjoy the picturesque view around you which definitely is the best way to enjoy the vibrant flora and fauna. Also, while kayaking, especially taking up the double kayak, it can give you the opportunity to have a great time bonding with your friends, like how i got to bond better with both Superfarhaaaan and Ita Baby (: Teeeeheee!

As for the Banana boat, i shall give a thumbs up for that! It started from a gentle scenic tour along the coastline then abruptly it changes to a white knuckle ride over the surf of the open sea, which will left you open mouth, gasping for oxygen in order to remain one piece. haha. Damn Syiok! Especially with bigbrother joining us, together on the boat! Nyahaha! =)) And ouh yaaar, Superfarhaaaan, thanks for the umpteen rescues. hahas. Without you, i supposed i would have fallen to the sea for like more than many. haha ((:

Now about the last ride, the flying fish. Both Ita and me should have sat rather than lying down. I believe the thrill would be mounted up if we lay our back at that boat and NOT our heads down. Lol! As the aerodynamics of the fish, that kind of machanic branch, gathers speed behind the boat, it'll allow you to "fly", racing your adrenaline rush. hahs! Good ride for those adrenaline junkies! Teeehee =D

While we were on the boat, "flying"...

Ain: I wannna meet *....................*!!!!
Ita: I wannna meet Hilmiiiii!!!
Dzariff: Aku nak sembahyaaaaangg!!
Mahathir: Aku nak pergi masjiddddddddddddd!!

HAHAHAAHAHAH! Rabaaaaks!

Okie after which, both the superheroes got drifted from the rest. Perhaps due to the difference speed between us and the rest. hahas. Thus, we went to take our bath first before contacting them once again. Bid farewell to Bigbro before making our way to the 7-11. Headed Harbourfront via bus and flag for cabs to Simpang Bedok for dinner.







Tragedies after tragedies took place when it was neared to midnight. From me accidently slipped my wallet away at the bus stop sit to buses and trains have stopped their services. Ended up most of us reached home near or beyond midnight. Especially Superfarhaaan. Thanks for everything, you! (:


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p/s: Your voice sounds just like a lullaby. Meet me tonight with your Airforce Uniform, Sweetheart <3


Sukarnya memiliki kasihmu apatah lagi hatimu.
Kau jauh meminggir ketika bisikan rindu ini begitu menggamit jiwa.
Namun kau tewas jua akhirnya dek kerana kuasa kasih sayangku yang tulus suci.
Lalu tunas kasih kita memekar menjadi jambangan bunga yang subur menghiasi laman asmara.
Maka kita pun berjanji setia. Biar apapun dugaan yang melanda untuk menguji hati dan perasaan,
akan kita hadapinya bersama-sama agar kebahagian hubungan suci ini berkekalan buat selamanya.
Namun...
sering aku dalam ketakutan.... sehingga bila akan ia berlarutan...?

Tomorrow... after 3 days.. XOXO! (:

imissyou.

Labels: Time Check: 1:26AM

There it goes, each time i open this page to blog, all ideas will just vanish away from my mind. So tell me how? Haha. None is at home except for me and the little sister, who is just lying next to me, meddling with her darling handphone. I miss that sony erricson of mine! Too bad, it has dropped dead before me some months ago. Sedih yang tidak terhingga aku rasakan. Hoho (:

I miss Bahasa Melayu. But I'm afraid, if i were to rant in Malay, both the grammars and vocabulary will go haywire. For you know, it has been quite a while since i used them properly. Well, no harm trying! Hehs.

Tersentak aku dari lamunan di kala deringan telefon kedengaran. Ia bagaikan memecah seluruh kesepian di kamar merah ini. Lantas, dengan sepantas kilat, aku mencari-cari telefon bimbitku, dengan mengekori suara deringan yang seolah-olah memanggil-manggil. Ke kiri, ke kanan, aku melirikkan mataku. Namun, ia tidak juga kelihatan. Resah. Gelisah. Hati ini tentunya tidak tenteram. Di manakah letaknya telefon bimbitku? Bagaimana sekiranya ia langsung hilang dari pandangan? Walau sedemikian, kemusykilanku semakin menebal. Bunyi deringan itu! Dari manakah datangnya ia? Kegelisahan semakin menghantuiku. Lantas, meragut fikiran warasku.....................

A short one it is, haha. Writing used to be a form of therapy for me. But, as years passes by, work loads piling up, thus straying me away from it.

Hoho. Anyway, let me blog about yesterday. I was awaken by a very special alarm clock. Was dreaming away.... so peacefully. Suddenly...... The phone rang.... Guess who it was from? Haha.. yea, who else if it wasnt that MRalarm clock, Super farhaaaaan! Haha. Pity him, he was down with some sickness (Gosh, stay away from me okaaaay! hahaha), thus that explained why he was in the polyclinic, waiting for the doctor. While waiting, and out of pity, i decided to keep him company till his turn. Awwww, aint i sweeet, Superfarhan? LOL! haha okay, that is so redundant! haha! (:

That afternoon, met up with cousin Izan. We decided to explore West area, since East side has already been conquered by us for like a gazillion times? hahaah! Superfarhan was super cute! "Awaaaaak! Guess what? Im dating my bf.. Lols.. Where r u nw? ^_^" Hahahhahaha! Yea, they were somewhere around Lot 1, which i supposed they were eating their meals away in KFC, while waiting for our arrival. Hoho! Didnt tell him where my location was. Instead, i replied that we'll meet if we were destined to meet. And aww, they actually went to search for us. According to superfarhan's blog, he got his destination right, with the used of his woman's institution? hhahahaha!

I was looking very attentively at this one dress. Suddenly i sensed someone was coming towards me. With his head closely neared to the dress, his neck then instantly tilted towards me and greeted me with a word. But i dont remember what the word was. Hehs. Really, i was on the verge of jumping away from that place. Haha. Well, yea, true enough, he was Superfarhan! haha! That superhero buddy of mine! nyahaha! (: I was then introduced to his friend, Nashri. He seemed as though he was about to faint anytime soon. hahahaha! So cute! We then played Hide and seek and catching.

According to Cousin Ezzan, "Hari ni, izan rasa macam superstar... mcm kene stalked dengan paparazzi. Popular lah kita, Ain!" Hhaahahahahahahahahah!! Macaaaam-macaaaaaam lah that Cousin! Yeaaa, Both Superfarhan and Nashri were like Paparazzi at that point of time, following us to wherever we go. EXCEPT FOR, girls' shop, the undergarments place! Nyahahaha!! =DDD Both me and cousin Ezzan couldnt stop laughing because of that! Haha! (:

We then headed Macd to have our early dinner. After which, we bid each other goodbye, before both me and cousin proceeded IMM (:

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I'm excited for schoool tomorrow! (: Weekends were definitely a blast but the thing is, it soured me horribly, thinking that i couldnt get to see that baby face! hmmm. But as long as i know, that face is always there in my heart, im more than happy (:

I wasnt okay yesterday at night, during the wee. My heart wasnt at peace. My mind wasnt calm. Strangely after that call, everything was back to norm. Like consuming pills, i was high in ecstacy. Meet me tonight. Ill wait for you by the window. Afraid not of that monstrous Security. He cant do any harm on you. Sing me a lullaby and put me to sleep with your arms around me, with your lips adjoined with mine, i miss you. SSS, SSS (:


Hold my hand, and never let go. Hold me tight and whisper those True words to my ears.........

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Ciaosu People!
(Hahahahahahah, Now i got the right term! Woohoo. Superfarhan's post really enlightened me, due to his lame Jokes and comments! Haha, apa sajeee je lah saje superhero kita semua ni... haha. Macam clown yang tidak bertauliah, LOL! Heh!)

And ouh yes, i'm chatting with him now! hahah! Lol! No wonder i cannot stop giggling, haha!! ((:
The one who never failed to say either "helllo awaaaaaak!" or "Wonder Aeynnn!!" each time i appear online. So cute! haha! (:

Heading Lot 1 with both cousin and lil sis later on. And i heard that someone will be there too. So yea, if we were to bump into each other, dont act as though we're those stuck up strangers who wouldnt even want to see each other in the eyes okay! Haha. Still remember those days during our Live Audio meetings... Those were the days. Haha! Sungguh Sombong Kita Dua ye! haha!
Am i right, Superfarhaaaan? =))

Had a talk with Abang hilmi some minutes ago. According to him, it's better for me to follow my heart rather than forseeing what future would take place. Well, i doubt that ive made the right choice. At the same time, i also doubt that ive made the wrong move. So wat say you? I'm currently waiting but no pop ups? The one that ive been wanting for, to be greeted by.. perhaps just a wish. Only a wish.

Bigbro Izwan, wheree are you? I need your opinions next! Hehs! (:

Like what 1009 lecturer said....."In lecture room, students talk like they have not met, for a very long time but after lecture, one will head north and the other will proceed south, acting as though they never knew each other before" Sadly True!

Perhaps, for now, i would make an adjustment by saying, "In school, students talk like they have not met, for a very long time but once they are out of school, both will pretend as though they are strangers to each other" Unfortunately True! Agree?

Probably, my heart is too weak to strive for my rights. Ahhh, better not give any hoots about all this. I wannnaaa meet my Girlfriends! I wannnnna meet them like crazy! I too, wanna meet my boy friends! Azeez and Dz, bila nk meet up ni?? (: We organise BBQ mahuuu? ((: Contact soon! =)

Tuesday onwards, i cant wait. Anticipating that day. Gonnna catch up with those boys! Yay yay! BBQ! Just like what Dz said a minute ago! Hahas! ((:

Out soon! Takecare and I'll update soon! (:


p/s: Gosh, i hope your interviewS (with S, mind that! haha) are earlier than mine! Nyahaha! (: Bump into you soon over at Lot 1, Teeehee!





Will there be a time, we'll smile and wave each other goodbye, pretending nothing happens, dear you?
I rather have us in the past................................ saying hello like a routine.

Labels: Time Check: 1:43PM

Ciosu People!
(Seriously, i donno what ciosu really means. That word, i originated it from Superfarhan. Nyahaaha, but i guess, it should be something regarding hello, sort of a greeting or whatsnot. hehs)

School? This semester is horribly hectic. Once and for all, i shall denote that I PREFER MY PREVIOUS SEMESTER'S TIME TABLE, also the modules. I freaking dont like this semester's except for maths, digital electronics and innovation & creativity. Super duper interesting they are despite how tedious they can be at times (applies to maths, especially) (:

Havent had revisions. Gosh. Really need a day to pull up my socks and get all of my attention to study. I need a study partner! I miss Kartini! Hoho. Tini, lets go out for a study date this Sunday? To Vivocity coffeebean? (: Gonna arrange for it soon. I dont care! Need to go out and squeeze those brain juice! Or it might get rot anytime soon, omg! Nyahaha~

School starts at 2pm today. Supposed to be at 12pm but poor Ms Lam has to go for some checkups, thus it was delayed to 2 instead. I donnoe if it should be cheered or jeered. Hahs. As for me and Yuki, we'll be in ELP by 11am. Creativity and Innovation Project has to be done. Havent really decided on what idea to choose but by today, the report will be completed, by hook or by crook. Better get it done and over with. (: May god willing, hees.

I'm happy. Random phrase. But seriously, i'm happy. And i donnoe why either. I just feel happy. It has been a long time since i feel this way. I mean, it is sort of a comfort and ease. I'm happy. I cant really put my finger on what has actually made me feel that way. And i'm not even sure if ive finally found the diamond that suits my own imaginary stargaze. But all i know is that, i'm happy. Hmm...

True enough, when a glass has broken into pieces, even though how it was being put together, it wont be as perfect or as solid as how it used to.

I donnoe if i'm deluding myself. And to top it up, i dont even know what this lie is all about. What i truly knew is that, i'm starting to feel insecurities towards someone. Those sincerities i once knew has started to subside from me. Mind your words. Mind your doings because those are the things that will open up my eyes about your true reasons for being close with me. I donwanna be used. Cos if i'm feeling it ever so greatly, i will make myself vanish no matter how sweet your words may be to make me stay. I'm starting to let go.

SEG meeting will be held at LTN5 today. From 5-630pm, what shall i do? Hmm.. Superfarhan, i neeeed your help. Save me from that Vicious Boredom Villain Pleaseeee. Yes, our next villain is VBV(vicious boredom villain) LOL! (((:

Neeeed to go, take care people! (:

(Someone's in class, STUDYING, while im on my bed, heading to sleep sooon. hahahaha! Sorry my superhero buddy) Lol! ((:

Labels: Time Check: 08:07AM

A twitch of anger sweep over me each time i log in to my facebook account. Hoping that you'd reply but sadly, all were from others. I keep a track since before. Not even once you replied me. Strangely, when it comes to me, i would be excited to give you all of my reply. Be it from which ever sources; facebook, emails, online, smses, calls etc. Why is it so hard on you to give me one when you could give your all to others. Perhaps i'm being too sensitive here. Well, which ever it is, i'm gonna keep it low. No point rambling about it. Soon, you'll be out of here. The keys that ive given you once will be returned back to me. Once again, it'll be saved in my posession, waiting for the true one to have it with them.

Anyway, while i was browsing through some of my earlier entries this month, i realised that my english is deteriorating. There werent any spice in my rantings. Goodness! I felt so ashamed while reading them. Well, probably, i dwelt in so much of my emotions here without really looking word by word into my grammars. hehs. Unlike those entries back then.

I'm feeling all shag these few days. I need a break from those heart achings. Last week was a disaster, no doubt. Hopefully this upcoming week would be a breeze. I need fresh air! Hoho! Have you ever felt you need something but simultaneously, you dont really know what actually the thing is. And then, due to that, you'd feel all ungratified about it. Maybe due to the red month, im feeling this way. Oh my! I neeeeed the beach! Anyone nice wanna bring me there? Preferabbly Changi beach okay. Cause i'm craving for the swings so much!! Like Tarzan and Jane, swing beyond the limits! Yayy (:


- Who are you in my heart? And who am i in your heart?

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like about you could've been
But still you lived inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I loved and not forgive
And though you've break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna to take breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinder way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel your not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, mmm yeah
I ain't got to be afraid, my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away, away with you,
Yeah yeah yeah, oh ohh...

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Oh my god, Superfarhaaaann! You're so sweet larh! Never thought that you'd wait. What's more for that long hour. My apologies, my superhero buddy! You know what, being with you can lead me to diabeties and even obesity, gosh!! Hahaha. So what should i do now, you tell me? Hahaha! Need to really cut down on my sugar intake, UNLESS if i donwanna continue having conversation with you, not even through telepathy! Hhahahaha! ((:

That sweet guy there.. He never, never failed to make me smile! Especially with his sweetness and his joviality. They're so addictive! (: Thanks for everything, Superfarhan. Thanks for being the shoulder (through telepathy, once again) for me to cry on. Hehs! =DD And i wish you All the best with that someone special of yours even though i've yet to know who that person is! Haha. Be a man and go all out but if anything goes wrong, dont shatter cause in life..... If you want something, and if it's a Yes, it is actually meant for you from the start. But if it's a No, then you deserve somthing better. And if you Wait, you'll get the Best! ((:

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I'm sure many have known abt the thing between me and him, the classmate. Read through those entries from April till now. 6 months have past. Every step we took, they were slow yet surely. But I'm not sure till when will it last. Each time i close my eyes, i'd relive back those sweet moments btween us, hoping for a life time this feeling would be. Somehow, strangely, something deep down inside just tells me that something's not right. Still, whatever it is, do know Love, i'm always here for you. My care and concern towards you will never change even if we're not meant to be. You know, the content of our story is too beautiful that im sure a novel could contain it just perfectly (:

Biar kita bersinar bersama, sering kita berjalan selamanya, sahabat berkekalan sekilas memberi sokongan.....

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Thought of sitting at home today, just like what i told Hasif the night before. But apparently, it was tossed away since both the little sister and that sweetheart cousin wanted so much to go out. Dinner at Far East before we took a stroll through the Orchad lane. They were my happy pills even though i was the one who cheered the surroundings with my usual lameness. Standard lah kaan. Ain kan merepek. LOL! (: Seriously, i think there aren't any gorgeous guys around. I wonder what is so special 'washing eyes' on Guys around at Town. Seriously, to me, they're just pretty normal. Average kind. Hmm.. Perhaps, just like what Kaseh concluded, "Mata kakak ni kan hanya untuk perempuan je agaknya" LOL! hehs! But seriously, compared boys to girls, there are things to look out in girls, rather than boys! LOL! okay, cut the crap. I'm being lame once again! (:

Sweetheart cousin, you promise to take me to a restaurant kaaan? Hahaha. It's been a long long time since i went out for a date you know. What's more a proper one! HAHAHA! Save your money and bring me there okay! My birthday coming soon! hahahaha! I'm sure cousin izan will go..."ahhh, talk to my hand!" Teehee!! I love her! Despite her 17 years of age, she seems to be way mature than i am. Hoho! =)

Kaseh:
Kak, gi cari matair laah!
Ain:
Asal eh?
Kaseh:
Jadi tak payaah nak hold onto kaseh je! Sakit taau tangaan!
Ain:
Ehh... Akak pegang kaseh pasal kakak sayang laah!
Kaseh:
Sekarang kakak sayang sapa?
Ain:
Asaaal?
Kaseh:
Jadi lain kali pegang diaa.
Ain:
Kenapa?
Kaseh:
Kerana kakak sayang.

LOL! apaaa je!! Me? boyfriend? Relationship? Hmmmm.. TTM pun pening kepala, nak in a relationship. Tak payaaaah lah!
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Anyway, i miss my two GFs! Both Dee and Elfyee. Gosh! I miss them so much! Also, somehow, im missing my 4E2 classmates! And if anyone of you who still have our Graduation Video, please send it to me okie! So much for both Jovin and Sebastian in my school. But sadly, couldnt get to meet them! Ehh people, lets go lunch together laaah!! I freaking wanna meet you all okie! =DD Shall ask Wenny along! And the others. Nyahaha! (:

And randomly, im sick and tired in the games of heart. Seriously. Now the feeling is like come and go. How? Perhaps you're just too blunt that it makes my heart shatters yet again. Hmm. I shall then, just go with the flow, not knowing where to head to, just follow. Hmmm... Cause i've yet to see True Love in the air. Not the right time i guess...........

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Alhamdulillah, everything has now solved. No more perplexed looks plastered on my countenance. I shall now portray all of my genuine smile to everyone around. woohoo!

And to my dearest superhero, Superfarhan.... Thanks so much! Thanks for all the listening ears and yes, ill search high and low for your shoulder if i ever need one, heh! =DD



Awwww, so sweeet of you, Superfarhan! Like cheese being ovened, i'm melting yaaww! ^_^

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Jeya did great being the mediator. She was totally there to get to the bottom of story and try all out to solve the problem. I was terribly hurt initially. Like a vase crashed to the ground and bits of those sharp pieces plashed to my heart. Thank god, i managed to bring myself up once again and be back to who i really am. No longer having those emotions inside of me. Everything just faded in the count of minutes.

Suddenly, my mind opened up widely. Yet, i never regretted any of it, the time when i was immersed with happiness during those moments. Thinking of them, i would instantly smile for i know, even if its just for a short moment, i still had you in my arms and dedicate my true feelings to. The time when i was with you, ill never ever count them as experience, instead i see them as sweet moments to be cherished deep down my heart forever. I still care for you, my dear. And i still shed tears. I wish i could stand by you now and be there each time when you need me. But you know, i cant. I dont want us to depend on each other too much. It hurts me seeing you the way you are now. And im sick seeing myself the way im acting at this moment. I myself want our true self back like how you wanted, but you know, the thing is, its gonna be different. Still, do know, im always here for you as a good friend, also as a sister. See me as one. And you'll find the peace inside of you. (:



Like what Jeya said, my light is out. Now, it's your turn to extinguish it, and be all neutral. (:

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Taken on Saturday, 31st October 2009.

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