Tuesday, April 28, 2009
My mood wasnt affected because of those bruits. I shouldn't have to. For one main reason is that they are undeniably untrue. Not at all. i treasure the thing that we currently have. And i dont wish it to be affected in any way. I miss you, i really do. Though the time that we've spent together alone was countable, yet it meant something to me, it really do. Your presence taught me many things and opened up my eyes on certain things, in which for all these while, I've been seeing them as a taboo matter. Thanks to you, the thinkings are no longer here now. What matter is the heart and the sincerity that goes along with it. Only now, then i realised. Terima kasih, awak.

Another reason is that i'm afraid. Shan't elaborate much on it.

Photos will be put up sooon.
And wait, did i say that i BUMPED INTO SEBASTIAN THAT EVENING? hahaha.

On monday, went home at 6pm. Intended to take bus 45. 1st bus came and i PURPOSELY let it go. Second bus came and i again PURPOSELY let it go. Third bus came and i AGAIN, LET IT GO. By then, it was already near to 7. LOLS! While i was patiently waiting, a guy apparently came towards me. I was with my ear piece at that point of time. As always, i'd ignore the person and persistently move myself away. However differently that day, that particular guy seemingly kept coming towards me. So with the irritated look on my face, i instantly turned my head to him.

"AHHHHHH SEBASTIAAAAAN! GOSH! MISS YOU SIAAA!!!"

hahahahahaha!!! Seriously i miss him loads! Felt like hugging him right at that spot! haha Took a picture with him and we chatted throughout the journey since he too, took bus 45. Speaking of which, i miss someone's annoyance. haha Not sure if that kind of irritants would ever happen again. Hmm..

p/s: DONT ask me why i kept letting that 45 go. haha I have a reason for it. A valid one i supposed. Perhaps, just like what Sebastian had said, "Maybe its fated to meet here at this hour" HAHAHA! (:

Ouh sebastian... Do message me anytime anywhere. Lets go for lunch together one day. haha. Speaking of which, both Elfyee and Dee, when are you girls gonna pick me up from NYP? haha =D Surely Elfyee couldnt wait to meet her very one and only Sebastian, HAHAHAHA lols! *sounds wrong, definitely! LOL!



Me and Sebastian! Ahhhh, seriously miss him lar! haha =)



My Wonderful GFs at E-Hub Pool! =) hehs!
Love them to bits! (:



The couple! Sweeet, like Sugar, hehs :P



Elfyee with her darling.
While i TOO with my sweetheart!
Yey, she's my Romeodiyanasour! hehes!
p/s: ehhh, i very the SETIA okay! been with her since 2004 le!
LOL!

DEE, ELFYEE, AKU RINDU KORANG..!
or....
awak awak... kita rindu awak berdua laa!! bila awak berdua nak hang out dengan kita ni!
Kita rindu banyak banyak!! sedih tau!
(kan lebih lembut! korang ni slalu kata aku-kau-aku-kau kat aku, ishk! LOL! k ain dah start merepek. well what you expect! it's 3.46am in the wee hours, LOLS!)



Bullied by those two LOVES! HMPH! lol!




Meet Loksang! During EG1050 modules; Engineering Physic!
Love the teacher and the lesson! hehs! =D









EC0909 GIRLS! Heart them to pieces! (=

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Monday, April 27, 2009
Something happened yesterday. Still in the state of shock. Alhamdulillah, everything's fine now. Nothing major. I'll pray may both of my love get well soon and lead a happy life like normal. I believe in every trials in life, definitely there is a reason to it.

Supposed to have a study day out with the boys and Elfyee. Unfortunately, due to that sudden befalling, cancellation of it had to be proceeded. Apologies for it, guys! Ill definitely make up for it, i will (:

And to my dearest Annisa, thanks for being there when i'm in need. Thanks for all the encouragement and supports you have given me. Thanks is just a word. But I hope you'd recognise that the word is genuinely from the bottom of my heart, with full sincerity.

I never realised how strong i am untill you told me. In fact, Im not. Im just being myself. Being the one whom i should be.

Needa say something here. But I guess it's way too early to reveal what is kept inside, hehs.
Shall wait for a month or two. When everything's near to confirmation, lol! Due to a reason or another, somehow, i'm looking forward for school everyday (:
-MRT in the morn.
-45 back home.

lalala~


p/s: i neeeeeda do my CMS, darlings! Excuse me. And i'll be back soon :)


Saturday, April 25, 2009
I'm not sure if im down with some paranoia. But one thing for sure, this delusion I'm having right now is due to the psychological disorder in me. I tend to get a little work out each time i think about some weeks later. Well, I hope i could do it all good. Insya'Allah. Just needa spend some quality time and effort into those matter. No more hallucinating or dreaming away. Gosh! But in certain point, i do like the feeling. By that, i believe it'll be hard on me to astray myself away with other unimportant factors.

First week of school was great. EC0909 was amazing. 10th June, there'll be a 2.4km run together with Shaun. We took part in that event. Running for the school i supposed. Been awhile since i raced my lungs out. Gosh! I miss running. Seriously, running has always been a part of me before. Sadly now, due to some other factors i involved in, i tend to push running aside. Somewhat excited for that 10th June! Hehs! One free tshirt and one cca point will be given, lalala~

Speaking of CCA, there was this CCA presentation going on days before. And I joined two of those. Makeup Artist and Adventure Club. But I believe I'll be more charged up when it comes to the latter one! Yea you know, I'm not the type who enjoy sitting still for a very long time, even though i'm good at it. So yea, getting me arroused in some physical activities can live me longer, hohoho! I needa sweat, baby!

Gosh! seriously, Im worried for my common tests. Its just the first week of school and im feeling this way. Didnt get the chance to revise a package right after school. Body's too shag to open the book, gaaah. That explains why ive not been updating my blog often. Luckily today's the weekend. Gonna revise 3 modules today since Annisa will be coming over to my place. So we'll study together, hehs. And tomorrow revisions will be on 3 other modules, if everything's going on well, I'll be meeting the EC0909 malay guys to do some study over at downtown MacD. =D

Need to do my 50 sit ups now! The habit of doing it has to be instilled once again. Gosh! I just realised how lazy i've been. Ishk!

See ya!



p/s: what if there really is? what if we cross another line? what if it turns out real? No, im not expecting the unexpected. but im just too curious. like a little kitten. only special thing has an effect on me. wonder if you're one of them. hmm..

[its about both the CM and the M laaa for goodness sake! The SI unit and the non SI unit! HAHA!]


Friday, April 24, 2009
Ever heard of a supertition that says.. Never to have the feeling of an intense hate towards something for you never know that the feeling might overturn to an extreme liking..

Well, I do believe it but only to a certain extend. I never really get the chance to comprehend this kind of situation before. I never hated something so much and ended up liking it. Never. Because for me, if i love, means i really love. And if i dislike something, i'll either bar it from my attention or try my very best to at least instill some patience while dealing with it.

However, everything changed drastically. I now truly accept it as true. The experiences i went through for the past few months and days really stupefied me appallingly!

When i was younger, i saw a situation which really disgusted me terribly. And i then began to think why on earth, of all other things, they chose to be in that position. It was really a proscribed thing to me. I never really understood the reason beneath it. Not at all, I supposed!
Now, I'm experiencing the same thing. Sometimes, the heart can overpower your mind. It can either turns out good or the otherwise. It all depends on you. For this I'm sure, the climax will definitely be heart-wrenching. Tears will fall down the cheeks like the water flowing down a mountain to the ocean. Gonna be real sad in the end. Hmm. But, I shall wait for the nature to take it's course. Even though I know, it shouldn't be going that way.

My feeling's still the same.

...................................................................................................

CM. Something different. A noob it is. But surprisingly, the level of its quality is beyond average. One in a million, i shall say. But I wonder if CM can go well with M. You know, CM is not the SI (international system) unit. Unlike M. Perhaps, in MY own thinking, M is much more older than CM so CM isnt that recognised YET (ok lame! that is soooo not true! just a random thinking, hoho!) But lets see from a different angle, who cares, M and CM are still units. They definitely can get along well. HAHA!

okay, I'm shag! In neeed of a decent rest before doing revisions for the week. GOSH, it's just the first week of school and I'm already feeling the tense.

p/s: Seriously I'm thankful that i'm now no more involved in BGR because if i were to be still in, my studies definitely will be affected, phew! God bless!

Take care peo, till next time. The following week perhaps, hehs! =D


Watching SHUTTER with the WHOLE EC0909 in the multimedia room was amazing!
Hearts and Roses for them! (:


And hell yea, i love my girls! (:




Sunday, April 19, 2009
Gosh, i felt run down after a week of busy schedules! It was utmost hectic that at some point of time, i felt like having a night out till dawn in school, lol! From that, you can very well infer how much I've fallen for Nyp. Really thankful for the wonderful companions i have. They're sucha lovely darlings! From the classmates to the coursemates even to the schoolmates, they are dead set fantastic!

First and foremost, I shall dedicate a thumbs up to the physics preparatory lesson. Due to that 4 days of 8 hours study, it has actually bonded the ECC members from different classes. In another words, friendship starts even before the orientation begins. And then followed by math preparatory lessons. That really strengthen the ties between us. 2 days of 7 hours study, haha



1st day of Orientation





EC0909! We're chaotic! 5 roses among the 19 thorns! hahaha! (:
The guys are seriously full of nonsense, as always! LOLS!
Well, we girls, definitely the better ones, but can be more surreptitious. Beware! haha
Yea, we called ourselves as SISTERS! aka five hood? Robinhood? They're so cute! =D



Straight after everything's over, we met each other up at MacD. That somehow has became our initial meeting place. Either there or Koufu, that is if the guys were to join in as well, hahs!
Yea, we've became close friends right after the physics preparatory lessons. Unexpected friendship. Sadly, the four of us are in the different classes. But that dosen't mean we're straying ourselves away from each other. Everyday without fail, we'll gather up even for a few min. That is to update each other about the day. Love them Much! (:

2nd day of Orientation!



The 10 of us walked to the AMK hub from NYP right after the end of our last orientation. Took us about half an hour to reach there. Approximately. Window shopped. Then had our desert at Nebo. 8 scoops of Icecream. $14. All thanks to Atikah! (:



Atikah and Nabilah! And guess what? Little did i know, Nabilah was working at MPL during the holidays. Never seen her before at Galillee. Gosh! haha. What a small world! (:



Su, Me and Jenise (:



Since the table was too small to fit the 10 of us in, we had to separate ourselves in two groups.
So here's the first cluster! haha



Now presenting ya'll the Second group. haha!




Finally US together. We're a bunch of chaotic people who made a lot of noise non-stop! Gosh!
Macam pasar! But it was undeniably fun!

2nd day of Math Preparatory Lesson



Me and Nabilah again!


Me and Bernice


During the Lecture, seriously, we have NO idea what the Lecturer was saying.
So half of the time, we were doing our own work. BUT fortunately, there was a wonderful teacher who was willing to teach me. Sayaaaang kau Su! hee.
Damn! In neeed of meeting Cousin for the A math help! A math really makes my mind go haywire! But, the topics taught were interesting. Fell in love with Polynomial Division right after Su taught me about that, hehs! The process of doing it reminds me of Maze, lols!

Lecture ended at 4pm. From there, the cliques headed up to the library and chilled there till 7. Thought of watching movies but instead we meddled up with the piano. Quite a number of songs were played. And our MAHAGURU was Izar. haha. At 7, we decided to step the stadium and waited for Syak since his CCA ended at 8pm. Talked about ghost stories. Fantastic. Left NYP at around 830pm. And now, i cant wait for Monday. Everyone's gonna gather up again to play soccer right after school, 6pm. haha


Discreetly took picture of Syak, haha!


Hahaha, secretly taken, hoho!

And again! haha LOLS!


Adlin, Su and Me (:


Hakim was playing the piano, with quite a number of supporters behind. LOLS!


Saturday, April 11, 2009
Timid i was during the first day of work. Everything was foreign. And they were like aliens. My heart would skip a beat each time i move from one place to another. Let alone talking to them. That really seized me with fear. 4 months have past. Now they're a family. Always there whenever i'm in need. Never let me on my own. Care for me like i'm one of theirs. They're the sweetheart, the love that i believe i can never find in other workplace. Definitely, there were ups and downs. But those things were the one that strengthen the bond between us.

Now, school's starting and i have to move on from there. No doubt, i'm missing them much right now. The last day of work was bittersweet. Had a talk with both Cik Min and Cik Lina, together with Annisa. I would'nt say its a lecture. But it is more to a motherly advise. Deep inside i knew they meant well for us. They want the best for both Annisa and me. I admitted everything. No doubt, there were something fishy going on. From now onwards, by hook or by crook, i have to let go of it. Their words struck me hard that it really got pinned into my head. Bit by bit, i know we will. Grabbed Cik Lina's hand and promised her that i'll move out from the position i am right now. After which hugged Cik Min. And that was the time when i shed all the tears that was welding up inside. She was about to cry but she held it well. Her words really touched my heart that we exchanged pecks on the cheeks. Gosh! I'm missing them much right now! I then was asked to kiss Annisa's hand and call her kakak (: So cute!

Kak Annisa, hee =))

Cik Rohaya aka Nenek was really sad upon our departure. Hugged her tight and assured her that we'll be back to see everyone. During our morning run, definitely we'll stop by the library and say hello! =D

Anyway, during the last conversation between the 2 mums and Annisa, there were these 2 parts that really stunned me in complete surprise! Gosh! According to both Cik Lina and Cik Min after looking back at the situation, it seems that all along, i was playing around with Cik Min's son, giving him only hopes. Thus, both of them advised me if they're true, it's wise for me to tell him the real situation rather than letting him be in the dark. After which, without i knowing it, i blurted out something i never thought i would&could say. ''Takk, saya suka. Saya memang suka ____" OOPS! Big oops! gosh, did i really say that? what was i thinking? =X

When the conversation was ending, Cik lina advised me once again if i really have no feelings for him, never to give hopes! Same thing happened again, i blundered out ''tapi kalau saya suka macam mana eh cik?" GOSH! ainnnn, what was wrong with you? Are you out of your mind?

Cik Lina and Cik Min then burst into fits of laughter. Gosh! =X

Gave hugs to everyone before we made our move. Ouh yah, the colleagues are really a sweetheart. They bought us farewell gifts. Really sweet of them. Never thought that they'd love us this much!



Straight after, accompanied Annisa to RP since she wanna get herself a laptop. Again, the journey was bittersweet. There were times when tears flowed out from our eyes and there were times when we laughed heartily. It was such a arduous thing for us. To just let go and start afresh. It really was. But I believe, in times to come, we definitely will adapt to this new atmosphere between us. Insya'Allah, we will (:

At 8pm sharp, headed Parkway Parade to meet Umema. One of our colleagues. She treated us Swensen for dinner since it was our last day of work. Gosh! The colleagues are really a darling! They really love us so much. Gonna meet them again someday during our free time! (: Even aunty cheong, the library officer too treated us MacDonalds for our lunch! They are so, so wonderful. Never thought that we could have that much effect on them, hmm.. (:

Bottomline is: I'M MISSING ALL THE MPL'S STAFFS! gosh! I miss working! i miss my COMICS AND HOMES AREA! I WONDER HOW THEY ARE LIKE RIGHT NOW! hopefully they all are still well maintained! i badly wanna see those babies of mine! Both the comics and homes! They really are like my own kids! hmmm... Children, do take good care of yourself yea! Dont let the readers bully you! Dont worry, mummy will come by often to watch over you! Soon, mummy will come back (: Love you all muchmuch! hehs! :P

LOLS!

What about Yesterday? Annisa came over to my house. She was with her new laptop while i on the other hand was revising for my EG1002 modules. Guess what, i have a new lover! And its PHYSICS! yes yes yes! Somehow unexpectedly, i'm utterly in love with it. For seconds, i totally shunned bio away and occupied the whole of my mind and heart with physics! Seriously, if i had known that i suit better with physics, i would have opt for it during my sec school years, hmm. hehs! Perhaps, all due thanks to the Lecturer, Ms Lim (:

Right after dinner, infront of my family, Annisa wanted me to open up a gift that was given from her. Gosh, she's such a sweetie! According to her, it was a parting gift when my dad asked what was the occasion about, hehs!


Note:
Thank you for all that you are. Here is a gift in which you may adorn. That in order to gain a perfect outer beauty, your heart & soul entertwins & glows from within. I see this in you & always will. As long as you stay TRUE to yourself.
-God bless
xoxoxo
Yours,
Casper

Thanks dear Friend! Thanks for the Love and everything you had showered me ever since the start of our friendship. You know you're one of those specials in my heart. Forever you will be. Promise me you'll keep to your words when school starts. Strive for that very PRINCE CHARMING OF YOURS AIGHT! believe me, theres no harm for girls taking up guys' job. Sometimes, guys can be very dense, so you, when the time comes and when you have to, go make the first move, HAHA! (:

It's gonna be hard, honey. We'll try bit by bit. Just so you know, you're one person i donnwana lose! Don't go just yet. Cause i believe we still need each other. From a different dimension, at least. I love you (:




Photos coming up soooon! All due photos! haha! Taken since weeks ago! (:

The preparation of pizzas made by both Annisa and me.
specially for the MPL staffs! hehs :P
From 1130pm to 1am.
Then continued from 430am onwards.
The reason why we were late for work on our last day! GOSH!


DOUGH! haha.. requires two people! hahaah!
Seriously we have no idea about this dough thing.
We were more to experimenting it actually, hehs! :P



Cheese! Controlled by Annisa! Her job! mwahahha!
While Hogdogs, my task! teehee :P


Yea! Finally, OUR PIZZAS! after all the hardworks, it all paid off!
hahs! :P



Yayyy!!! The two Corrupted Chefs~
Mwahahahaha~



Gonnnna miss the M LEVEL SO MUCH!
Our home, our room, our everything!
And I'm still waiting for the BED&PILLOW from the manager!
HAHAHA! yea, intend to overnight there one day!
Definitely an underground intention! MWAHAHA! lol!








On the third of April! Hehs :P
Friday! Went out with Cousin Izan.
Been a long long time since i met her and taaadaaa!
Love her so much! Lets meet up again, yea love (:

You, i donnoe what effect you have on me. But it seems that i wanna open the door and search for you. Ive yet to hear any knocks from you. Why on earth do i even care in the first place? Gosh! You're the only knock that apparently i wanna hear. Others, it seems so easy for me to shun them away. But not you, gosh! I thought ive let go of your types. And no more playing with this kinda game. But heck, i cant let myself drive away from having this feeling, gosh! And now, im missing the knock. Yes, missing the knock so much! It seems that you're the one who is giving me hopes. Not me. But i wonder why do they have to jump into conclusion that i'm the one whos giving you hopes. hmm... I don wanna open the door but how am i supposed to search for the knock without opening it? Heartless person you can be sometimes! hmm..


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