My heart was shattered and i let you off. You came back with hopes i would once again return. With the feelings that never seems to change, i accepted it once again, with a hope, we could mend everything back again as the best of friend one could ever have. You crave a smile on my face. You bring laughters into my world. The night proved your sincerity. I used to be afraid of losing you. Used to be afraid of having gaps between us. Used to be afraid of the distance that might be drawn between us. But now, i'm afraid that the feelings i have inside of me would change. I'm afraid i would lose the thing i hold inside of me for 6 months. I'm afraid i couldnt uphold the promises i made. And mostly, i'm afraid to hurt you in any ways. Perhaps, that day, it really did impact me so badly that it altered my heart. It was the horrible feeling i ever encountered before. And im afraid to go through it once again. Afraid by the term, "falling for..."


What if i were to fall for another? And what if you were to fall for another? Those questions kept haunting me. I dont wish anything to be just temporary, love. But somehow, i felt it that way so greatly. Words and actions? What are they if the heart has varies? Will you?



Get back to me when u have read this entry, classmate......