The old me has came back; that hyper-active kinda girl who always see the ray of light even in times of darkness. The enthusiams somehow ran through the whole of me the moment i breathe in the air in that vicinity. I miss that place. The place which i used to hang around till late evenings for three years(fetching someone from school). That place which met me with many strangers whom I've now regarded as my close buddy. That place which i used to always study till late nights even though i had no authority in it. In short, I miss that place. I really do.

Tini, Sufian, Hasif, Helmi, Syahmeer, Loksang, Dennis and me planned for a mugging session in Temasek Polytechnic yesterday. Meeting time was at 11am. Hasif was the first person to come. That guy really amazed me much. I never thought that he would arrive punctually. Truly, you really astonished me! Kudos to you, Mister! (:

Had breakfast in ITAS. Chanced upon Hilda, Rabeetah and friends. Hugged one another like we never hugged before. Hehs. Lovely. Yes, those girls are just like sugar. Sweeter than sugar i would say! To my very ex-boyfriend, you better do take good care of Rabeetah. A nice girl she is, with a genuinely sincere heart. Good people come once in a life time, do cherish one another. May all happiness be with the both of you, Insya'Allah (:

After which, we went seeking for a place to study. Since we couldnt enter that darn library, we chose the benches somewhere near Breadboard and did our work there. Loads of memories came dashing through my mind, just like a movie without sound. The time how I used to wait for people and run about everywhere with the girls. Despite being 17, we still have the kids in us. Hold on, Tini was 18 at that point of time. That Big Sister. haha (:

Came upon Ashary. Miss the time when i chatted with the boys while they were still in the lab doing their major project. Disturbing one another through virtual world was amazing. Still remembered how i used to call them on the phone just to ask about some random malay words even though none of them achieved A for that subj and how the whole group used to surround me while i was studying in the library. Ashary with his syarahan youtube which i love to watch and listen hehs, and the rest with their bike website and psp. Also, the time during my first O-level. I was in a dissappointing state. The one who calmed me down were them; Azeez, Dzariff, ex-boyfriend, and this one RP guy. Sweet people they are, no doubt (: Ex-boyfriend do have very good friends around him whom I never regret knowing. In fact, I'm missing some of his friends now. Azeez, Dzariff, Rafi, Kak Fad and Kak Aini in particular (: All the best in everything you people do! (:

By 5pm, everyone has gone home, leaving only Elfyee and me, waiting for Diyana whose lesson ended at 6pm. By the way, nice to know you, Hafeez. Haha. That guy seriously is funny! I just love the way how we both bullied Elfyee yesterday. Hehs! And I wanna meet Fathin again! hahaha LOL!

Elfyee was being lame yesterday on the MSN. Read our conversation. Lawak sungguh budak seorang ni tau! Lol!



The photos with the girls (:













Those girls above are the one who never fail to be there for me in times of rain or shine. I thank god for giving me the opportunity not only to know them but to be their girlfriend too.
I love them. And when I say I love, I really mean it. (:

Slept at around 6am yesterday. Despite sleeping that late, I'm still glad that i finally understood 1003, with the help of Hasif. Webcammed with him throughout the morn. Thanks, you. You know, sometimes I wonder why on earth i didnt put TP as one of my choices but after i met you, i now then understand why. Ure like that guardian angel who'll be helping me through in my studies (: Once again, terima kasih awak!
SSS to you. (:

2nd July, Thursday, 10.40pm.

i was afraid to involve myself in any other relationship right after the initial one. After months of letting loose, that phobia tend to shed away by the day. However, someone special sparked it once again. And now, i cant see myself tying any knots even down the road later. Let alone relationships, getting myself in love is something i dare not even do.

I admit i do have a feeling for someone. May not be to a large extend but he is still someone i see each time i close my eyes. Well, I'm not the kind who would fall for someone that easily. Cause i tend to judge a person not only from his head to toe but also from his every move. Be it from the way he eat, the way he talk, the way how he deliver stuffs to another etc. Every single thing/move do make an impact on me. Thus, thanks to that special someone, i instantly got rid of the feeling i have for that one soul the moment she said those piercing words to me. I'm scared. I'm afraid that if this feeling prolongs and if it dosent go the way how we want it to be, everything would just crumble down and fall apart. Being strangers is much more preferable rathan being just a casual friend. It's like falling from a succeeding top. No doubt, it'd crashed me heaps! I've experienced something like this once. And now, it's happening to me. The heartrending moments. If you're someone no special to me, i'd not give much a bother but heck, you are. I'm breaking down, can't you tell, my dear?

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