EYN AEYNN'S

Friday, May 29, 2009

As i search through me, deeper by the day, swording against both the mind and the heart, still i see nothing. Apparently, everything seems a haze, blocking the eyes from that very smile right before me. Let alone the smell, to even touch it, is far from a distant.

I let it all out each time i say goodnight. A simple dream to bid me a smile, with a hope of an awe, reality would rescue me goodbye. Away from this land of brownish to blueish.

I wanna be like the sea. Calm and peaceful despite torrents of waves flicking the tranquils away. I wanna be as strong as the one within me; The faith that has yet been unleashed. I wanna fly, fly like the bird which never knew what fear is, which flap the wings up high to the blue sky. To a beautiful panoromic, i believe!

<33yn

I love them! (:

Night in the Museum 2 at Cineleisure Complex.
For that, EC0909 rocks my sock, seriously! (:

p/s: The most hyperactive class that seems to be the hot topic among lecturers! Notorious we are! hehs :D

Monday, May 25, 2009

Shouldnt be blogging right now.
Yea, I'm skipping 1002 module. For the whole weekends, i've been doing the powerpoint slides.
And only this morn, i started doing the scripts. Even that, only 3/4 of it has completed.
Hence, those assignments are still untouched. Let alone about it, I am now still in the midst of doing my revisions for this afternoon's test. Math's coming up in a few days time. Should have done everything by yesterday but all due thanks to those PPTs that have really taken up all of my time! Dammit!

Gosh! I'm still feeling all guilty for skipping the 1002 module. Like I've said, i donnwana skip any modules. But for this time round, i have to. One more chapter to revise before i'm fully prepared for the test. Most probably, gonna cab down to school later on. Can't afford to take bus. I can practice a whole lot of question during that 45 minutes long. Not gonna waste my time in the bus! What's more, Lilsis is following me to school, yay! Needa pamper her at times! Hehs =)

I needa go! One more chapter! Woohoo~
Hopefully, i could ace it, Insya'Allah (:

One in a million, you are!
No doubt, ive fallen for you.
No doubt, this feeling is all true.
It grows by the day.
A feeling that i never thought it would develop within me the first time i saw you.
Been denying it at first.
Now, i just couldnt bring myself to.
All methods I've tried to shunned it away, but they were to no avail.
Instead, it blossoms. The more I hate, the more i see you deep inside.
GOSH!

i've came to miss you when you're not around.
Your flaws mean nothing to me compared to who you are, that have truly captured my heart. Someone special you are. Unlike all others. Strange.

- Steady is just a status. It's the relationship that matters. All in the heart.
- Loving you from afar, watching over you from a distance. With full sincerity.

(:

By the way, received something from my dearest Annisa, hehs!

Love the picture so much!
She editted it so well that i cant seem to bring my eyes away from it.

Heee. Interesting! (:

Thanks, sugarlove! :)

ps: Me Likes! hahah =)

Btw, heard about a story from Hasif, tittled, Bujang Senang.

Played by Apek and Fasha Sandra.

Thought of watching it from YouTube.

Sadly, the videos uploaded weren't full!

BUT, both Apek and Fasha were so cute in the movie!

Effing Cute! Couldn't resist!

Seriously wanna watch it laaa~

CD haunting time! Lalala~

Friday, May 22, 2009

i hate it when i have to go through another story.
i hate it when i have to get all concern over a minor thing.
i hate it when i'm willing to sacrifice everything for other's happiness.
(mind you, it is 's and not s')
i hate it when my sleep seems abnormal. Even my eating habits for as though it never seems to know the definition of bloated.
And most of all, i hate it when the vow that i've made to myself seems to break apart.

GOSH!

I have constrict reasons to why i wish to prevent it from taking place.
Put aside the fear, the ground is actually more compact.

First of all, i donwanna be the murderer.
Neither do i wanna get myself murdered.
Thus, i wanna live a life of leisure and joy.
Away from all feelings. Especially those unfeigned feelings.
I donwanna be so true that i ended up gobbling myself down the throat.

I wish an end to all this. A full stop is what needed right now. Not even a pause.

The eyes, another kind of communication?

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Initially thought of skipping school. I was half asleep at that point of time. Afterwards, the intention immediately shrugged off the moment i realised that I'll be having 1003 lab for the first two hours. Lab = Happy! hehs! Despite how challenging it can be for me. (:

Self note: NEVER try skipping school! NOT at all. Ouh well, i cant afford to skip any of the lessons or i'd be crippled with fear. Exams are just around the corner. Very soon! Hmm. Even now, I could feel my facial muscles are twitching nervously. *Bite lips

Thank god, after a month of suffering, i finally could get the hang of those 8 modules i'm taking. Never thought that i'd lay my eyes on 1004 module. Used to really hate it. Thanks to the lecturer for the motivation he gave the other time when i complained about the hatred i had for that module. Maths? Never in my life reading up textbooks. Somehow, i achieved a better understanding about maths after reading through the big book with full hindsight. (:

Enough of studies.

Tell me what's going on. Apparently there seems to be a gap between us. So different compared to our first week. We were so notorious towards each other back then. Ever since we named ourselves differently, problems start to arise, one after another. And now, they, those people could obviously notice how drifted we are right now. Somehow i'm feeling a missing presence of a friend. But each time i see you, there'll be this terrible feeling keep taunting me. It then eventually turns out to be hatred. You told me to list each and every of your negatives so that i could brush off the anger that i have in you. I'd love to. Unfortunately, there are none. And to top it all up, despite us being under the same roof, communication dosen't seem to start out between us. None thought of initiating it. Even if one of us did, the other party would respond with a long face. Apologies for my part. For goodness sake, i didnt mean to react that way. But sometimes, when the thinking of the mind were to get overpowered by the emotions, you'll tend to do everything on the flow, puting the mind aside. Perhaps Our story could be a good video tracks for the movie we're gonna do. Where's the solution to this silent conflict between us? Gosh! Communication skills Module, do please help us on this!

Sometimes i feel like running a million km away whenever i see you around. Sometimes i just wish you weren't there before my eyes. Sometimes i just wish our friendship weren't as complicated as this.

The rumours have long gone. Worry not, it wont come back. I too, don wish for it to set out ever again. A good friend you are. No matter how much hatred i have for you, my care and concern for you still remain. (:

My Fellow EC0909!

All hugs and kisses to them! Hehs :P
Didnt have the chance to take the other half of the boys' shots!
So gonna capture them LIVE in photos sooon! hehs :P
MR Lee said, "Next week bring camera we all can take photo together-gether"
Cute ain't he? HAHA! (: