[TWO ENTRIES POSTED TODAY, FINALLY, HEHS!]


Time is really short. At one point of time, no doubt it'd seem so long that somewhat we'd think of a time machine to fast forward the move. But as soon as we have reached the climax, the tip of the mountain, we'd tend to dread the coming. As though we are afraid to overcome the challenges that will be thrown to us. Hold on! Thrown? Presented to us, i shall say!

Challenges? Because of those challenges, i believe one will become a stronger and a wiser person. For overcoming a hurdle needs a lot of patience, endurance, perseverance and courage. Without those qualities, one can never step ahead and be a better person. In another words, one would actually go all out, stepping out from his comfort zone to fight the battle and get bruises and wounded all over. But eventually, after he succeeded from the struggle, he not only gain the confidence in himself but also the respect from his ownself. That's the most crucial thing one should have in themselves before they could get the respect from others.

Had dinner with both Tini and Annisa yesterday. It was fun. The innitial meeting between those ladies. Now, Annisa has already met my three girlfriends! Yay! Had a very fun talk. Well, not only that but serious talks were also being brought up. Yea, have to admit that i actually broke down inside during the last session of our talks. It was dead serious that i felt as though it's gonna be the end at that very moment. True what Tini said, it cannot happen even though how much i want it to happen. And I have to let go no matter how much i dont want it to go. And worst, its gonna be hard, real hard on me. But i have to overcome all these thing. And true what Cik Lina said. No one is at fault BUT me! Because i let it to happen when I can stop it right at the start. When i can prevent it the moment i realise it. But i didn't. I let my emotions to take control over my mind. Now, its too late. Too late to be back to square 1. It's irreversible! Serve me right. However, i don't feel any tinge of regrets to all of these, not at all. The irony of it all. In fact, I love it. I am thankful that Allah did present me with this challenge. Because of this, i found an angel who never fail to watch over me and showed me the true meaning of not only friendship but also love. In another words, it's gonna be the First and the Last!

The moment April comes.................. The date has already been decided. 4th April shall be my last day of work. In need of 2 weeks break before the start of the term.






The Library READERS! Hahaha LOL! (:

Shes my Happinesss! Love her sooo much! (:

Yea, I'VE CUT MY HAIR! woooohooo!!
After for more than 3 years i've been promising my GIRLFRIENDS that i WILL cut my hair SHORT, only now then i realised that very vow of mine, LOL! hahaha!

So what did the cut&curl gorgous man do to my hair?
Cut, Highlighted it red and lastly, did a treatment to it. $120 for all.
There goes my hard earn cash... Hmmm.. =)

ONLY ONCE IN A BLUE MOOON I SHALL PAMPER THEM WITH LUXURY. The next time round i shall hit the saloon will be mhhmm...... wait till a century later yea? (: LOL!

Till my day Off again, hehs! (:

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My heart shattered that night when that particular topic was brought up. My heart cried aloud but never let it out from inside. We used to laugh until we had to cry. And I believe we will love right down to our last goodbye. Perhaps, we were the best. We'll ever be i supposed. We chase that dream we never found and sometimes we let one another down. But the love we made, made everything alright. For we shone so bright like the sun lighted up the universe. Time goes on. People touch and they're gone. You and I will never love again. The smile when we recall. We had it all. For just a moment. Only a moment.

Tears was welding up inside. As if the heart has taken the eyes' position. No, I cannot reveal my true emotions. I could not emit out the tears from my eyes. I thought I had to be strong. All along, i was just puting a facade with that smiles on my face but god knows how torment i was inside. Until a poem was read out to me. I felt much at ease and somehow smiles were flying over my head, trying to stick themselves to me. To the whole of me. Successfully they did. Happiness then came flowing all over me. From head to toe like the water flowing from the ocean to the river. That was how rushing the emotion came engulfing the whole of me.

My Guardian angel's weary.
Her body is aching.
Her feet are tired.
For i have put her through many trials.
My guardian angel dosen't have wings.
But she has a heart that soars way up high.
She has eyes that looks to the sky.
She has hands that yearn for the heavens.
She's my guardian angel and more.
She's my friend.
My friend, Nur.

Thanks Annisa! (: I can never find a friend, a friend like you ever. You're one in a million.
May the memories never fade away even though how far we will be in times to come. May you find your very prince charming who will take good care and love you for who you are. Just like how your little kitten loves you. Cause it's love for you can never be measured and is beyond words. Also who loves you because of Allah. In the name of god and because of Him, I love you because we are humans and we share the same gender and I never want any harm to befall you. Neither do i want you to stray yourself away from Him. So please, Take care of yourself once April comes. And please do take note of all the advises that have given to you. Never say TRY. Instead, always bear in mind that you WILL and you MUST! For the sake of no one but Allah and yourself (: You're strong, baby! You Are strong!

MRboyfriend,

It's gonna be our 6th this year. Thinking back those days, no doubt it was bittersweet. There were times when we laughed so loud as though the world belongs to only us. But there were also times when we thought it's gonna be the end of us. However, we were back again as one. And that was against all odds. We went through alot. From happiness to sorrows. From sorrows to experiences. And due to those, we learnt more about this ties and became a stronger lovers. As time goes by, the knots seem to get loosen by itself. It was so strange thinking of how it actually happened. More to unexpected i guess. We didn't feel the same feeling like how we felt before. Everything just fell apart by its own. I dont want it to go this way either. But it already had. And now, I'm in denial. I don't want to be the murderer. I want the best for you. And I'm not the best asset you can ever own. You deserve better. A girl who is of your choice. A girl whom you could lead and guide her with your ways. I love my own way now. And I believe i have yet to search my ownself. Thus, how am I supposed to manage any relationships right now. You were the best thing ever happened in my life. You not only showered me with love, gifts, cash, time etc. You also showered me with your patience, endurance, perseverance. I know I can never find someone like you. Someone who loves me like you do. Someone who could put up with my nonsence, with my obstinance. But i believe, i have to let you go. I dont wanna be selfish. I dont wanna murder you. I don't want to let you be in tears any more longer. And most of all, I want you to search for your real happiness. For all you know, the times when we were together, that was the best thing ever happened in my life. The very first guy who seemed to give his all to me despite having to have a hole in his pocket. Thanks love! (:

Much Misses,
Aeynn