Life has been a roller coaster for the past few days. However, Alhamdulillah, I managed to survive through those hurdles despite having to lose a dear one. Supposedly, you people should have the vague idea that the 5 years relationship has already been terminated. It wasnt any kind of misunderstanding that led it to this halt. Instead, there is a whole lot more reasons to why it happened.

Firstly, I want all happiness to be with him. Thus, i had to let him go no matter how much i dont want it to. Secondly, I want him to be a filial son who will make his parents proud of him in all matters. Hence, i have to sacrifice myself and not get myself involve in anything that has to do with him. Thirdly, I love him too much. Too much to see him suffer in the near future. In which i see his world would be in haze if he were to continue being with me. Like I say, I just want all happiness for him. In a nutshell, letting him go and terminate this relationship is the best way that i can ever think of.

Dear you, i believe that one day, that very one fine day, a lady of your and your loved ones' choice will come before you and steal your heart away. I wish you a joyous life and may smiles be with you each and every single day. Do know that this heart will forever pray for your happiness and safety. All sincere words from a girl whom you once loved so dearly and who loves you whole-heartedly.

Aside that, my sugarlove will be back sooon today. Supposedly somewhere at the later hour. Gosh, I'm missing her so much! Too much to even think how much i yearn for her return. Annisa, where are you? Tell me honestly, am i really missed by you? Cause I'm missing you terribly! And the best thing is... the colleagues have beeen making fun of me, hmph! Embarassing me with their jokes, LOL!

"Kesiaaan si Nur nie dalam kesepiaaaaan je.. Yelah Mambang dia takda kat sini"
"Ni la, mentang-mentang matair dia tkda, tulis suraaaat je lah dia 24 jam"
"Where's your boyfriend ar?? Didnt follow her ar?"
"I thought you go holiday with Casper??"

SMS recieved from Cik Min
"Ni mesti takda mood keja pasal yg sorang tu jauh di mata dekat di hati ha ha eh eh tu kan senyum manja ummi nampak kat hp"

HAHAHAHA!! Gosh, these people are sooooo CUTE! hahaha

p.s: Annisa, seeee how sharp these peoples' eyes are... They really can see through my heart.. and CELEVERLY concluded that ive missed you terribly! hahaha! GOSH! i donnoe how exactly the situation will be like when u're back, hehs! Allow me to hug you for all i want! And some kisses too yea? LOL! hahahahaah!

Cant wait for the term to start though. 20th April. A future lies in it. Ive seen myself somewhere there in years to come. Insya'Allah everything will just go fine. May it be a new breeze for me to breathe. Insya'Allah (:

For now, i dont see the need of any relationships. Cause it is nothing compared to the good future i'd position myself in times to come. When there's everything, there'll be anything in hand. But as for now, i need to stabilise my initial step and from there, i'll head on to another. Thus, i believe other matters wont do me any good help, instead it'll distract me even more. Allow me to reach the top of the mountain first before i view the wide beautiful scenery with a special companion. Yes, That special one is someone who must have already reached the top of the mountain and is now currently waiting for me to finish my steps and meet him there to view the beautiful moments together (: