The love shall stay. The feeling will remain. The special bond will forever be in placed. But the intention, everything will be different. Once a lover, forever we'll be friends. This kinship can never end, i have faith in it. We have faith in it, i believe (:

Losing my sugar, from this catastrophe i went through, I learnt that God is amazing. He works in wondrous way to help and show his love to us all. It may not turn out good in the beginning or in the middle, but surprisingly it is when it comes to the end. It really flicked me with amazement! Alhamdulillah, the cure to it has already been found.

It's hard to wake up early in the morn, without doing your usual routine. It seems that something is amiss. Something is just wrong. Especially today, the first day, the moment i woke up from my sleep, at 5am sharp, i hurriedly gripped my handphone and stared at it. The keypad was all ready, waiting for me to click it. But i couldnt bring myself to. Perhaps, its a one-sided feeling. Furthermore, i have to stop all that if i wanna end the feeling. End the feeling? This seems so contradicting from the first paragraph. Gosh, what am i thinking now? I believe, the feeling will end soon and in times to come, we'll see each other as complete friends. Just like how we used to before. No more when there's you, there's me. No more of it. We'll be back to our independance.

Cik Nab:
Budak-budak ni macam dah tak boleh dipisahkan lagi gitu.

That will be long gone forgotten in days to come (:

Annisa, one thing for sure, you will never be forgotten. Never. You have made a great impact in my life that I really feel you as one those specials in my life. You're part of me. You already are. I can never see you as someone else other than a Big sister. Remember the messages i sent you about sisters? How strong a word sister can be? I'm looking you as one right now. I love you, sister. I really do. Because of the deep affection i have for you, i will go all out to do the best that i can to morph you into the Real you. I will. Insya'Allah. Till our date out together on the tenth. Just the both of us. You and me. Big sister and Lil sister. Only the two of us, (:

I'm already missing you, hun..

Secondly, thank you little kitten for today. Though it was not something that I fancied, you still managed to persuade me because we both know this change will be for the better. This change will bring about new beginnings. Insya'allah, they are GOOD beginnings! Hohoh!There is a warm, fuzzy feeling to know that you will always be there throughout the transition(s). It might be difficult but the pact cannot be broken though the line seems fuzzy at times. =PPPLittle kitten, you have helped me through so much and it seems Allah have released the seal on our eyes to see beyond (the past) and look at what exactly it is that we should be seeing. And that being: the Kinship. The bond that comes with it. The endearment and the need to always keep each other in good, positive spirits, and thanking God in the process. Never forget Him little kitten. So that He will never forget you. =)

I thank you for yesterday too. Without yesterday, i dont think i can let go. Without yesterday, i dont think i will be alright. Without yesterday, i dont think i'll be at peace like how i am right now. I thank you for that, Love. Yes, the change is for the better, not only for us, but for the people around us. Cause without we knowing it, we have affected them in a way, people whom we love so much. GOOD beginnings will definitely be in the way, insyaallah (: Have faith in it, Sweetheart! Hun, i will be there, always be there for you, throughout every of your sadness, happiness and whatnots. I will always be there, may not be physically but always near you at heart. Believe me, I will. It is difficult, no doubt to it. But isnt that the first step to reliefs. Hun, i'm having difficulties too. You're my first in this type of situation. Imagine how hard it befalls me right now, having to know that i have to let you go, having to know that you're not mine like how you used to. But i know of one thing, you are always mine.. my big sister (: And for that, i'm yours, totally yours.. your lil sister. Once again, i love you, big sister. Remember, when i say i love, means i Really love! (: That's the kinship we should instill in us starting from now onwards =)

Dear Allah, i thank you for introducing my Big Sister to me, the love of my life. The light to my darkness. The huggable and the kissable sister, thats her, Annisa (:


I will love you now, later and forever. I will <33


Boifriend, i'm missing you so much! I need to meet you. Been weeks since we last met and i'm missing you real bad. There're loads of thing i need to update you about. I still love you, really i do. Dont doubt any bit of it, yea? (: