Somewhere outside. Heading home about an hour time, i hope. Hoho. Some people just love to make me wait. Hmm.. haha!


Something, something special. Something so special that you can't seem to see it go, away from your life. Unfortunately, there is no way you can keep it safe with you, taking it as yours. No matter how hard you try to keep it, no matter how much efforts you put in, there is still no way, there can never be a way to let it remain there by your side, not even close to you, like how you always yearn for it to.

Have you ever feel that kind of feeling before? Well, personally I do. Little did i know, a dear friend of mine too has the same kind of problem. The only difference is, my problem is more to about someone, while her, maybe about some kind of thing, perhaps.

There is this someone whom i find so special in my life. No, this isnt the first time i'm feeling this way. I admit that there are some others whom i do cherish, be it people from the past or current. However, this time round, it's a bit different. Having to let it go is a sure and a guaranty thing in life. In another words, I have to. Gfs said, it's forbidden. Well, true enough it is. Even though i've gone through a lot of it before, but those weren't as difficult or forbidden as this. Sometimes, i'm afraid to even forsee what will happen in the future. Sounds strange? Yea, that isnt me! For i am that someone who thinks and looks out for future happenings. Weirdly, not this time round. I'm too scared to see it coming. Timid i am, yea it can't be denied. Well, I guess that's life. Perhaps, like what typical people would say, time will heal. With time, the pain, the wound will certainly be healed. I hope. But it's hard, i believe its gonna be hard. So hard that i can feel it right now, like a sharp razor searing my heart apart. Yes, that kind of feeling, that kind of pain. Somehow, i have to keep it low and be cool about it. Cos it's out of my reach. Seriously, i cant do anything about it. I'm just a human, with no special powers. I'm just His slave. All i could do is to seek refuge from him. May i find and gain the lost peace in me.

That goes the same to you too, dear friend. Even though i'm not certain of the special thing that has led you to this situation, i hope everything will turn out right for you in times to come. May you be out of this misery soon. May you find a cure to it. Sometimes, some things are meant to let go, no matter how heart-wrenching it can be sometime.

i wanna stand with you on a mountain.
i wanna bathe with you in the sea.
i wanna lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me.

p/s: tears, if only you could do something. i wish.