Love; the three words. Do not swear at all.

Although i see joy in you, i have no joy of this contract: It is too rash, too unadvised, too sudden, like the lightning, which does cease to be ere one can say, 'It lightens'. Sweet, hold on to the line and dont let go. I wish...

28th January 2009. That night, a night full of memories and passion. I never felt that way before. The night that made me realised how wonderful life is. It was so wondrous that i felt as though i was one of those characters in the Fairytale Land. When i was younger, i adored those tales, as a happyhappy ever after seems to be always in the hand. However, as i grew older, i realised that life isn't that fair afterall. Always mark by injustice or deception. That was when i put an end to my Fairy tale land, and moved towards the reality.

But that night, it was different. It took all of my pain away. And left me breathless in my own fairy-wonder-lala-land. It was the moment, a moment i never felt before in my whole entire life. If only i could rewind everything back here in this blog, i definitely will tell from the very start. Sadly i cant. All I could do is to only relive those moments in my head. Gosh, I never thought, it can really has a great effect on me. I'm loving each and every second of it!

Unfortunately, like Cinderella, i had to be back by 11pm. (even though shes by 12)
That was the time when i shed a tear in my heart. I donwanna let go. Neither do i wanna be apart. Everything just crashed in the mind. All mixed up. For once, I felt so lost. Terribly lost. Will i see it once again? But till when? Till the start of my school? Gosh, I'm tearing right now. Just like Romeo and Juliet, adieu is in the midst of us, just like the hunter hunting for its prey. The prey to the reality, we'll be. God! Will that really happen?

Come what may, i shall pray that may the curtain falls, not on the darkness of our tomb, but on the brightness of it.

It was so impactful that after the goodbyes, the hands seemed to tremble, the mind instantly was in absolute daze, and smiles were all over. Hallucination seemed to occupy the entire mind that i didnt notice even a bit of me biting the thumb. The impingement to it all.

It's going to be tough. To part. You and I,
we've been blessed to know each other.
So.. when it's time, and when it starts to hurt,
just pray. I may not be there to give you what you need
but God is there. He is the only one who can help you.
Not me. Not anymore. Don't be sad.
Life's like this when we get ourselves strangled in such delicate situations.

Know this little kitten, whatever you're going through,
I'm going through it too.

You simply ease me with your genuine words yet again. Thanks, you! Friendship till the end of time! That is for sure, the moment April steps in, the reality in the real world.


p/s: BITTERSWEERT shall be the name to it all!