I never thought my initial intention would lead us to this far. The first time i saw you, I knew you're not just an ordinary person. Well, true enough, you're actually like an angel sent from the heaven to bring a new fresh of air for me to breathe. All along, i never knew what independence and let go are. Nor what is the true definition of holding on. However, after you came, you simply opened up my mind with your thoughts and assured me yet again that even if there isn't anyone there for us, God is still here, never fail to love and care for us.

Sometimes, i wonder if i were a good friend. That night, i sent a message, saying how i would be there for you regardless of rain or shine. How i would let you to be in my arms if you were to feel down. And how i would stand by you whenever you need me. However, it seems like I'm now having a second thought. I'm afraid even before we noticed how close we are, we're drifting apart without we knowing it. I'm fear of losing a bestfriend who simply understands me more than anyone else. What's more, people come and people go. Isn't that life? And I very well, don't wish that to happen in our beautiful ties. Somehow, your answer to Auntie Jean's question that night led me to think it through yet again. Perhaps true, we'll be friends till the start of our school. After which, it'll just be like any other ordinary friendship. Simply hello and simply goodbye. No spices, shattering my heart into tiny little pieces.

p/s: your entry calmed me down. Appreciate that alot! (:

Anyway, days spent with Casper for the past few days were the days i would hold dear in my heart. Those days are the days where many things were learnt. She simply eased me by her thoughts and sentiments that somehow made me a wiser person. Lying down on the beach, gazing at the wide blue sky with fluffy clouds, experienced the downfall hitting our mere skins and all those awkward times we went through for the past few days have really put a big smile on my face. Especially those silence. Even though it was bewilderingly weird, i somehow enjoyed them. Perhaps, it was my first time though, having to experience those kind of strange atmosphere, lol! And I believe, Cik Kasminah noticed that, dots! (:

Smile always, you! (:




Dear MRboifriend, i understand your feelings. Maybe thats the best way, spending our time alone without each other for the time being. I don wish to add salts to your wound yet again. Come and contact me when you feel relief. For i will always be here, waiting for you (:
Takecare :)