I'm happy with my current job. The colleagues are really a great bunch of people. They are so nice that i feel as though i'm doing the house chores at home. Furthermore with the sight of the books, it seems like there is this kind of enthusiasm, urging me to reach the MLP two hours earlier everyday. Especially the books at the M level. The young adult's. Those english novels are downright awesome! =) You really should drop by there and flip at least a page. And i'm sure you definitely will get yourself engaged in them! (:

Anyway, on the 22nd December 2008, Monday, i was doing some shelf reading at the third level, under the art section when someone suddenly, out of no where, tapped me at the shoulder. Precisely, i was shocked. Initially, I thought i was nudged by a senior due to some mistakes i did at that point of time. However, at the same time, i was wondering what mistakes did i do since i'm very much sure i did no wrong. Yes, those random thinkings ran through my mind in a very split second. So fast that i feel like there was a sudden attack in my heart, haha.

I was not only shocked but was also enthralled the moment i turned my neck to my right that not even words could lay out from my mouth. It was like as if i was struck dumb with astonishment and surprise, serious. It was Elfyee. And the hilarious part was, while she was whining about something continously, i could only hear with my lips being sealed still. Haha! See, told you i was too shock to even say a word. You know what Elfyee, i was really touched by your arrival. The travel from Serangoon to Marine parade really proved the eagerness in you to meet me up. I feel like crying now. I'm sorry if i didnt show or express my appreciation on that day, but seriously deep down, i was really touched by it. Thanks alot dearest GF! (: Not only that, she even got herself lost while on the way to MPL, which required her to walk a distance despite she was fasting on that day. So you see, how sincere her heart is. Seriously, i feel like crying now! And yes, I'm on the brink of tears already!

At the same day, there was a plan between Tini and Me to walk around Parkway Parade right after my work. The moment the clocked showed 5, the three of us then assembled at the first level like how we used to back then in TP. Really, it was really a joyous day. Love it so much! (:



The next day, i called dee up right after i was done with my work. Good to hear that she's alright. Been aeons since we met. What's more having the three GFs, walking down the street together. I miss those time. Those days especially the secondary school moments. One day, the three of us surely have to meet up and start the the rock and roll party once again! Let's make some noise, babes! (:
p/s: On the 7th Jan, Monday, aku off. Lets have the threesome date! Picnic by the beach? hee!

Anyway, there is something that seems to bother me so much. Everytime when i'm alone, this thing will somehow strike my mind, leading me to think about it thoroughly. A day before, i went to the ICA building with SISkaseh to make her IC. It was around 8.15 in the morn. While we were walking towards the building, we saw this grandma, sitting on a wheelchair, with the sun shining above her. She was selling tissues. So the both of us walked towards her with the thinking of buying some tissues from her. To our great surprised, the tissues are sold at 5 for $1. How cheap can it be? I wonder the profit she'll get. Even if there is, it will be very little. What's more, having to wake up so early in the morn to start her day off with the sun shining so greatly above her head. And the worst thing was, there were hardly any people trying to help her out or give her any support. Not only that, they even strayed themselves away from getting near that grandma. And even if there were, they'll tend to ignore her presence and walk as if they're a big shot. Seriously, i feel so disgusted seeing those typical Singaporeans! But the thing that really bothers me so much is that i simply gave her a one dollar coin for that 5 tissues. I should have given her more instead! Damn! Well, gonna head down to the ICA building again on this 31st since Siskaseh forgot to bring her birth cert in our first coming. Gonna purchase the tissues again from the grandma. This time round, i'm going to give her more (: Perhaps, there is a reason to why the birth cert was left alone at home on that day.

p/s: Sometimes, i feel so helpless seeing the way things really are right now. Whenever i think about it, it seems that the responsibilty is on my shoulder. Somehow, it feels like there's something in me, telling that i have to think of the way out. Even though it wasnt mine actually. Still, i wanna take in charge of it. I wanna make things right! I wanna bring back the smiles. I wanna bring back the joy. And ceased the sorrows and hardships away! Well, its gonna be mine in years time. But the difference is, im starting it right now. I cant possibly wait till i find surety in my life. Thats gonna be too late. Well, basically, i have to begin everything from this very moment! I hope i wont be crying to sleep like how i used to currently. Yes, im stress! Ive full of things to think about! But i know, its a test for me. And i have to be strong! (: May the light eventually shines through, insyaallah.

Thanks Bf for being my faithful listening ear, i love you!

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah aku kekuatan Maryam dan ketenangan Saidatina Khadijah yang telah mana engkau berikan kepada mereka pada suatu ketika dahulu.