I wasn't in the right mind for the past few days.
I failed to discipline myself. I failed to overcome the feelings.
I failed to push it aside. Maybe, it's just a temporary thing in life.
Very soon, it will fade away. Absolutely, I'm sure of that.
The love is now down with some sicknesses. I wish i could be the one nursing him.
I wish i could be the one feeding and supervising his condition. I wish everything of those wishes will come true one day, definitely when the both of us are truly ready.

No point vowing about making out both the B and D from the MSN.
Because i believe those promises will never be carried out.
Even if i were successfully do it, it will still be back to square 1.
From now onwards, all i have to do is to close one eye and snub everything that ive acknowledged deep down in my heart. Sometimes, truth hurts and may bite you viciously.

Something reminds me of Something.
Watched MRcinderella in youtube. Somehow, i was reminded about Tarzan. That was when i wonder why isn't there such a thing called MRtarzan. Minutes later, i was awaken by reality to an appalling extend. It seemed to bang me real hard. I then realized i just did a foolish thing. How could i? Someone should be greatly disappointed with my act if he knows about this. To you, i apologies.

Time flies really fast. 5 days more to the 13th. I will then be left behind, waiting patiently for the arrival of 18th. I pray may everything go on smoothly. Second entry for the day. The evidence on how fast time flies. The first entry was ranted somewhere in the early noon while now, its nearing to dusk. Time flies really fast.

The words from MRcinderella really caught my attention. I fell greatly in love with those phrases.

(While they were busy typing down their feelings using their PC)

Puteri Megawati:
Suara di jiwa teronta-ronta
Mata yg melihat, hati yg memandang
Menjerit, Meraung, Meratap seribu bahasa
Namun, jendela bibir tertutup rata
Kelu di lidah tidak mampu berkata

Hakimi(MRcinderella):
Puteri di mata, puteri di jiwa
Maaf dipinta, terkasar bahasa
Terhenti nafas, masih bernyawa
Umpama kunci trsalah pintunya
Terjumpa pintu hilang kuncinya
Ibarat ada dalam tiada
Namun engkau di sini, aku disana.

Puteri Megawati:
Terhutang budi Tergadai hati
Menyusun langkah tersisir ke belakang
Terus berundur melangkah ke depan
Di sini tidak, di sana pun tidak.

(The letter that was given to Hakimi from Puteri Megawati)

Jantung berdegup penuh bicara, hati berkata sesepi bahasa.
Wujudnya ia tanpa suara, hilangnya ia meninggalkan luka.
Ibarat gula tiada manisnya, ibarat daun tiada hijiaunya.
Hendak menangis tiada arahnya, hendak merusuh tiada tempatnya.
Semakin dekat bertakhta di jiwa, hendak dicapai terasa jauhnya.
Darah yg mengalir masih terasa, namun MRcinderella hatiku membisu jua.

Those sweet words really enchant me. Just like honey, those words are simply sweet.
Fortunately, there is such thing called Youtube. Or else, i wont get the chance to watch the movie once again. To replace the lost CD requires a lot of time and efforts and i don't think i have those in my grips. Thanks to my busy working shift schedule, hoho. Luckily im just a temporary full time. haha =)

Get to go, just received a msg from MRbf, woohoo.
Till we meet again! (:

Two parts in MRcinderella movie that im seriously in love with. View it if you have the time =)

Part 9:



Part 10:



Tag replies:

to Wan:
either to start all over again from square one or to just brush it off, haha
For no help will be given to you, hehs! (:
to Passerby:
Well, i wasn't a thinking person initially. I used emotions more than mind. Its the experiences that have actually opened up my eyes =)
to Eeqah:
thanks darling! haha.. 1991 babes like us rawks to the core right? ;)
to Ezzan:
Ain misses izan jugaaak! bila nk drop by kerja ain? haha
to Tini Wong:
haha cepatnya! Good for you! all the best with the new one aight! Much misses! hee =D
to Raff:
Yup2.. my com is currently infected by Virus. Sobs! Gonna do something with it real soon. hee, thanks for the remindings! hee =))
to Wats:
Macam Fishball kau ckp? hahaha.. kau pon satu la haha okok.. nnti kita kluar ok! andand bila kau nk lawat mak dee, bilang aku taau! rindu korang! hee
to Jiwangster:
hahaha.. Sec 2 lar! haha.. apa je sec 3. haha.. sec 2 kan my fringe mcm dog bite.. hehe..
anw.. love u too.. hehe =DD