Did i say that i felt not that good these few days? as in the feeling of some premonition going on? Well, i finally understood the reason why ive been in that state lately. Its hard for me to accept initially but after awhile, i finally got to persuade myself that ive to let it go. Not because i want to. But i have to.

When i was in primary school, we had a group of our own. We called ourselves as sisters. There were 6 of us. We went everywhere together. Right after school, they would drop by my house and we would slack till the evening. Whenever exams approaching, we'd study together, again in my house till dawn. And when it ended, we would be having some movie marathon or play some games like badminton. There were loads, loads of sweet memories with them from walking home together to being a secret agent, exploring Bedok, trying to capture some suspicious looking culprit. When we stepped into secondary schools, we still did contact, saying how we missed each other, talking about the fun time we had with one another during the past years. Either through friendster or MSN. However as years passed, we hardly be there for each other and because of the new friends we made, we left the memories, the good time we had shared stranded like a history book being untouched.

When i was in Primary six, i made a new friend via the chatroom. We were quite close and miraculously, we got into the same secondary school and even became classmates. That was when our friendship strengthen. Whenever we reached home, we'd update each other about the happenings in class and would gossip about just everything. There was even a time when we added Miss Yam in the conversation. Funnily she thought we were couple. Well, even we were close, we had no feelings for each other. As we onli regarded one another as just sister and brother. Nothing more. I remembered, i did ask him if our ties would deteriorate some day later, and he replied friends are meant to be with each other forever. However as years passed, we hardly be there for each other because of the new friends we made, we left the memories, the good time we had shared before stranded like a history book being untouched.

BF. He used to have this bestfriend whom they called themselves as brothers. They would be seen around together, hanging out with each other almost every time. I would tag along and join in the fun. We clicked with each other really well. Whatever problems we had, we would share with one another and would try to calm each other down. Sometimes we may be out from afternoon till night, just chilling out to spend time with each other. However, as days passed, we hardly be there for each other due to some unwanted problems arose, we left the memories, the good time we had shared before stranded like a history book being untouched.

When i entered secondary school, i seriously wanna get to know this person. Only months later, we became friends. Every night, we'd be sms-ing with each other about just anything. Some nights, we would prolong our conversation till the wee hours. However it lasted for approximately 5 months before he got himself attached. After which, every thing stopped. No more of such conversations, Even if there was, it'll be just like some random chatting which lasted for like less than 10 min. Not long after, around 6 months later, our friendship strenthen back. It became stronger. However, it was like come and go. At one point of time, we'd be like the bestest friend anyone could ever have but then suddenly everything stop. Then after days later, we were back again as good friends, chatting and smsing with each other. There were loads of time i asked him till when will this friendship last. And he replied as long as i want it to. No, there is no feelings between us. But its like the fate is playing trick on us. At one moment, we are friends, but at another moment, we would be back as strangers. This happens even up till today. Again like ive stated at the above, we have no feelings for each other. Both of us are currently attached, having the love of our own. We only regard one another as siblings. Siblings with no blood related. However, im sure one day, we will be departed from each other and all the memories we had shared together will be left stranded like a history book being untouched.

Also, during the secondary school years, like primary school days, i had a group of my own too. But there are these 2 persons whom i cherish most. We were like the best of friends anyone could have. Eating out together, gossiping together, exploring all places together, mainly we did everything with the presence of each other. It was like nothing can separate the three of us. We even promised that whatever happens, we will always be there for one another in rain or shine. However due to some misunderstandings, it seems like the past history is repeating itself again. Perhaps, some months or years later, we'd leave the memories, the good time we had shared before stranded like a history book being untouched.

Well, the motive of typing them down is to show how fragile friendship is. People come and go. And it seems like ''friendship forever'' only comes from the mouth. But actually there isnt. As day goes by, more people we'll meet and get to know, causing the past friendship to be displaced by the new one. Well i guess, that is part of life everyone has to go through.