At night, alone i curled on bed,
flashing through those instants in my head,
sorrows gripped, for repentance i seek,
tears dropped, leaving still the sins behind,
for pardons i prayed, for the things ive done,
may peace be upon me in the time to come...

I was in my parents room when i had a small talk with both ayah and ibu, regarding teenagers these days. Ayah then told me something. Something really crippled me with fear.

''mula-mula memang kene paksa. lama2, insya'allah dengan sendirinya kita akan redha. sesiapa yang tidak mengikut perintah Allah, neraka lah baginya''

Paralysed with fear, i went mum, reminiscing those days when i profoundly felt fear of god.
I was just 8 then, having a party in my class at that point of time. I asked Razemir for the nuggets he brought from home. He then pointed at the table with various kind of food. I then scanned for his nuggets and instantly gobbled them up the minute i saw it. Later on, to my utter dismay, i was told that his nuggets were place at the far end of the table, and not in the middle. Worst, i heard that the nuggets i ate may not be halal. Seized with unbearable fears and sins, i begged for forgiveness from god every now and then right after that incident, like as though my life was about to be taken away soon.

Now, i am 17, almost to 18. Knowing what is right and wrong, still, i always forgo those terms and do everything i feel like it without considering its consequences. I was so different compared to whom i was, when i was still a kid. Thinking of this, can really make break me into tears. Well, all in all, i hope, my eyes have now finally opened to welcome my new set of journey to be well continued. Insya'allah.

Anw.. Since many have been bugging me for the Raya pictures, i finally have the time to post them up here. So yup, here goes....




Both guys raya-ing at my house, with my cooking dished out on the table =D


Bee hoon goreng, thumbs up from MRbf, haha yay! (=


Love the picture despite me having no eyes. Thanks eh Hyrul! haha


Hyrul, the Tom. Kaseh the Jerry? haha Lol!


Asmaradana.. Lol! (=


The 'arts' from the art student, MRbf (=
haha