Shall post an entry while waiting for the Azan Subuh. Furthermore, ayah is still in the toilet.. So i've to also wait for ayah to jemaah together.. And Yes! Today's the last sahur for the year. Thus, tht means Aidilfitri is on the very next day! Yes peo, tmr! Just tmr! =)

Anw, if u did notice, it was raining during the afternoon period yesterday. And the best thing was, i can finally feel the ease in me till in the wee hours, woohoo! =b
In which it occurs only once in every unnoticeable-period-of-time... frequently after some dreams. But, amazingly, i dont find any strange in it. Not even an inch, like i always do, haha.
As there is a saying, experience is the best teacher. Lol!

Suddenly the phone beeps. Now, yes now! Lol! From the darling bf, woohoo, being very sweet, he wishes me a very good morning and may peace be upon me. Not forgetting with his usual daily cute blabbers haha (:

Anw... On a serious yet jokingly note, i really felt like strangling MRbf! haha (:



The reason why i always have to sign out from the MSN account! grr! haha
Apart from that, from my thorough inference, MRbf is actually tracking down on every of my moves. and yes, i so love it. cos it simply means that he loves me much & donwanna lose me to anyone else, LOL! =p but i wonder why he always keep denying it.. hmm (: haha
kan syg, kan kan? ;)



Yes, i was downright saddened by both BF's friends' words!
BF is soon gonna leave me once he has graduated.
Can u like take ur diploma without letting the govt know about it? haha lol!



Happily accepted as ''duyung'' from him, haha
BUT... a besar version is so................ inappropriate? lol!
No, besar is so not acceptable! haha lol!
this type of bf oso have, saying his gf BIG! aiyo! lol! =p



In the end, im the one asking back his initial qn! haha LOL! (:

Alright then, ayah's calling me up! and after which, gonna hit the books again! hoho
Sayonara! (:

It has been awhile since it rains(minus the fact tht it just rained some days ago, but it was morning downpour, mind you!) Its the night showers that im missing so much. Perhaps, its the heat that somehow realised me of its importance in my daily life. Seperti kata orang, kadangkala kita hanya sedar akan keindahannya apabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata.

p/s: i'm not asking for the widespread showers with thunder and gusty winds that is happening currently in the pre—dawn hours and early morning. Neither do i want to see havocs with the morning rush hour traffic, causing massive jams and several accidents on the roads, like what have been happening recently due to the heavy morning downpour. All i'm missing is the rain during night till in the wee hours which could somehow substantially ease my soul (:


Ternyata ia tidak semudah seperti apa yang aku sangkakan.....

First and foremost, HAPPY 26TH MRbf! (:
Happy 4 years 9 months!
3 months more to the 5th Annive! Woohoo! =)



I was smiling gleefully while in the midst of RE-reading back again some msges sent by the Love, a few days back.

27 Aug 2008
11:25:26 pm
Asalamua'laikum u. I love u tau. I admit u lawa and cute and i suka tgk ur face when u cry. Mcm wow, cute, kalah kucing. TP I TKNK U SAD. i cyg u tau. mwarks!

Haha. MRbf's words were so contradicting! haha. Prefers my wistful looking face yet hate it when im down with sadness. LOL! i love u too syg! (:

20 Sept 2008
03:06:33 pm

I pasir di tepi jalan, u pulak duyung di lautan.

Love.. if im the Duyung di lautan.. will u be my Prince where the happy ending awaits us, living happily ever after, just you and i.. will you? (:

I'm missing him already lah! Hopefully can get to meet him up in the library afterwards. That is if both he and rafi are kind enough to visit me studying, after their school! haha (:

Anway...
MY FRINGE IS BOTH CUT BY THE QUALIFIED AND NON-QUALIFIED HAIR DRESSER! hahahaha! LOL!

Well, i was annoyed by my long fringe which couldnt resist to irritate my eyes every now and then. Thus, i had it cut by a qualified hair dresser from White house. It turned out as a china-doll fringe, gr! Wasnt what i really wanted actually. But it somehow turned out alright for me. Quite satisfying.



However sad to say, it wasnt prefered by both MRbf and MRrafi. Also by my another friend, Anum. LOL! Hence, i took the risk and cut it again MYSELF! haha. Nevertheless, it turned out better for them, esp MRbf. Phew! As for me, ive no comments! hahaa LOL! (:



Siskaseh:
As long as u like it, just stick to it. Afterall its ur own hairstyle, not others.

Sometimes i wonder, who's the elder and whos the younger, LOL! (:
Still, i LOVE her more than anyone could (:

Whatever it is, im trying ways to get back my SEC 2's look and hairstyle!
Argh! How frustrating it is to see how yourself have changed over the years.. becoming older with your face ageing by the years. hmm..

Speaking of which, I miss my Lower Sec life. Those were the bestest and the happiest moments ever happened in my life. New friends made and forever are kept in the heart till today. No matter how drifted we are right now. I just miss those days, esp the friends i made during those years. And if u peo were happened to read my blog, just to let you know, i miss you guys.. You know who you are (:

5 years down the road... we'll see how ripened my face will be like... oh god! LOL!

Takecare! (:

Whenever i see them, the elderlies, i'll tend to think of Mama, my late maternal grandma. Been 4 years since she left, but deep down, i somehow can still feel her presence. i miss her terribly. From her, i learnt what love is all about, not by verbally but through one's sincerity.

When i was younger, i always ask my myself, ''dosen't Mama feel tired whenever she pet me to sleep every night without fail?'', ''dosen't she get bored having to take care of me every now and then, morning till night despite how troublesome i am?'' and ''dosent she feel fagged to wake up early in morning just to make breakfast for me despite how sick she is?''

Now, when i get older, i then realised, its because of love, she didnt feel any burden bringing me up. Withal, she actually enjoyed doing all those. That explains why people who are in love tend to sacrifice their everything for their love ones. In which it all links up to sincerity.

Bottomline is im missing Mama's presence so much. So much that it caused tears to drop. May your soul rest in peace, Mama.

I never thought guy's shopping can be more frustrating and time consuming than girl's, haha. It took me less than an hour to get myself a suitable baju kurung. Surprisingly, bf took 2 hours to get himself a suit, haha! Nevertheless it was all worthwhile. We're a white couple this year, what's yours? (:
A special thankyou to MrAzeez for the companion by the way! (:

Anw, i have a new friend. A friend which will always remind me of Bf... Bf's love for me (:
Well, that someone bought me something, something which i find it so cute. Something which i enjoy playing with. Something which makes me smile whenever i hold it in my grips. Something, something i find it so special! (:






Syg... every little thing u do for me, really brings a smile on my face.
I love u so (:
Thanks for the everything (:

Anw, im so effingly in love with Tini's New phone.
Its camera quality is so freaking good!
And i very much wanna have a change in handphone!
Oh well.... (:













p/s: I dont hold grudges. Once u're a friend, u'll always be, Forever.

Sometimes i wonder, is sleeping that difficult chore for me to do, haish.
Even has been urged frequently by both the family and bf, seemingly im still being obstinate to listen. What's more, its an advice. How stubborn!

So anyway, since i couldnt coax myself to sleep, i shall update an entry regarding today.
Seriously, it was a terrible one. So terrible that at one point of time, i thought of giving up.
-To lie motionless on the floor and wait for the ambulance to fetch me.

Gastritis struck me while i was sleeping. At first, i felt a forceful expulsion of something from the inside. Was feeling downright full at the upper abdominal. But i ignored it. After a few min, my condition worsened. Hiccups appeared and whenever it appears, i really feel like vomitting. So i immediately went to fetch myself a cup of hot water. (im having period, btw!) But it was still to no avail. Withal, i started out vomitting, continually. From 3.30pm onwards. Damn sickening!

Siskaseh called ibu up. Ibu asked which clinic i wanna go. And i opted for CGH. Soon after, ibu got home and we then cabbed down to the hospital. A&E was crowded. Luckily ibu brought a plastic bag for me. If you were there, i believe u would catch me vomitting out the whole time round, lol! Yea, people around looked at me as if i was a criminal. But who cares, i was sick.

Ain:
Kaseh, kakak looks so much like a sick person eh?
Kaseh:
Ahah! Dgn rambut kusut masai, baju dgn sluar tdo, tk tentu arahnya.
Ain:
Grrr!

Wait, did i mention abt my hp was accidently left in the cab? Well, fortunately, the driver kindly drove back to CGH and returned it back to me (:
How tactful! =)

So, back to the story. I was lucky enough that i was called up way earlier than expected.
Guess what, i got Dr. Muhammad Zulkarnain. Hes such a good looking man! haha. Very sweet. He did mention about Food poisoning and Gastritis on me. But i believe, i was more to Gastritis since i didnt have frequent diarrhea. And i was asked if i wanna stay up a night or two there. Well, i wanted actually but my instincts said no. I donwanna caught up with MORE workloads. So, maybe next time LOL!

After we have left the room.

Ibu:
Kak, he's a malay doctor.
Ain:
I'll be there in times to come, blh tak ibu? (giggling&chuckling)
Ibu:
Sudahlah kau kak!

LOL!

Cabbed home and straight away took the medicine. I then slept soundly after which. And now, i couldnt get back to where i was -the wonderland. Hmmm... Hais!

I made a research. And was barely astounded by it. Saw heartburn in all of my prescribed medicines under heading 'indication'. So initially i thought, these medicines are taken by the heart patients as well. But then, the amusing thing is, the medications are meant to act upon as neutralisers to the acids. Hence, how on earth is that possible to cure or soothe the heart problems or pain.

Then, i finally got the ans. Heartburn is actually a discomfort or pain caused by the stomach contents traveling up from the stomach up into the gullet, LOL!

I terribly dont feel good right now. I feel like vomitting out again. And a sudden headache has caused a blank in my mind. I better go and take a good rest then. Takecare! (:

To my one and only syg...
The silent treatment you gave me today, really has proved your love and care for me.. I nvr thought it would turn out this way. Im sorry. Truly, please forgive me..

*I have faith in u kitty, always* really makes me wonder. You never fail to believe in me despite my forever horrible attitudes towards you. You know what syg, u're really my idol. I donno if i should call myself lucky. Cos if i do, then i supposed ure the unlucky one.

Please, please accept my apologies.. )':

Am utterly missing your presence.
Its your hand i wanna hold.
Its your lips i wanna kiss.
Its you i wanna love whole-heartedly.
Just you &only you (:

Atleast im aware that u actually noe what jealousy means (:

Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to Tini...
Happy birthday to you.......

Yay! someone has turned 18 and is already legal by law!!
Woohoo.. lets celebrate the joyous moments for her!
haha..

So yup.. today.. A gathering of 3 in a food restaurant held somewhere in Tamp mall, around 630pm. Guess what, I made a big embarrasment to myself before i stepped into that place for e 2nd time.

Well, once i reached there, i straight away went to get the manager. Luckily that place do provide a birthday services. And then, i walked out of that place and left Tini in curiosity. So got back there around a few minutes later. Was calling out Din at that point of time, when i unnoticeably kicked a pool of stones infront of me. and then off those stones dispersed at different direction. Yeah! i caused a big commotion there that brought various eyes to set on me. Distinctively at me! Gr! Lol! Well at least, I did make both the birthday gal and Din laughed like mad! haha (: Yah, a joker clown i am today (:

Then brought Tini around till Din has finished with the masterplan!(a surprise one though!) Then after which, we broke our fast. And yah! The moments started minutes later after we hav finished with the eatings.

Catch the 2 videos for more Details!!

It was a total surprised for her! haha.. Having to stand on a chair before all customers in that restaurant, followed by a birthday song sung by the crews! (:



An initial soft blow followed by a humongous one after which! haha

P.S: May Today be your Very utmost bestest Birthday Celebration ever. And we hope u really do love the cake we bought for you eventho it was nothing much. And yup2, We really love you to bits of pieces! veryvery much! right Din? ;)

Sarah then joined us a few hours later, producing a more chaotic environment! haha (:
Enjoy the pictures!

I just love it when seeing MRbf consumes foods into his lil tummy.

Have you ever treasure a friendship so much that u can even die for it?
Have you ever love your friend so much that in every of your prayers, there is never a time you forget to pray happiness in that friend of yours?

Have you, dear you?

I have a friend. A friend i treasured so much. So much that not even words can possibly describe it. Perhaps due to that, the term ''power of friendship'' revolves in us. There were times when we were back as strangers but it never prolonged. There were times when hatred engulfed us, towards each other, but the powers resolved it. There were times when we were saddened by each other's says, but at the end of the day, we burried those feelings and simultaneously, fortified the friendship. Thats the power of our friendship.

Makanan. Sewaktu tiadanya ia, kita kehulu-kehilir mencari-cari. Namun, malangnya, tatkala ia ada, terjadinya pembuangan yang melimpah.

Prolly, it is time to say goodbye, again. What's more, u hav now found yourself someone who not only can be a true friend, also a lifetime happiness (:

I felt bad inside. Tears instantly welled up in my eyes the moment i heard the talk from an Ustat through the 94.2FM radio channel. Listened to it right after i did my subuh prayers, around 6am. According to that Ustat, Prophet Muhammad s.a.w never ever in his life held any grudges on peo, even if they were to curse and do harm to him. Withal, he actually prayed for their happiness and well-being, with sincerity. That was how devout Prophet Muhammad was. I wish and i pray to have the same genuine heart as him. But when i reflect again on myself, my eyes suddenly brimmed with tears. If, if only i could follow his steps, definitely, i can be a better person for tomorrow. Insyaallah.